the usual happenings, but I felt better today?

Hey readers!

I think I'm really getting into maths..
WHY?! I dreamt of me discussing maths questions with my team mates. (DURING NAP) and said someone is stupid because he can put the R=0 and hence he can get the answers by following the sequences. (I'M SUCH A GONER)

I laughed a lot. Really enjoyed working with my team mates..
I cant help beaming at the webcam when I wore that cranky "harry potter" spects. Took a lots of pics with it. HAHA

Chris' Mr Ant is still sleeping in faccy's drawer..
When is he going to collect it? Poor Mr. Ant.
Mr. Ant sounds weird meh? I think its a cool name.

Mingshen was playing with hangman. LOL
When he told me he keep on dying, I said that because he's lousy.
Guess what? He smiled yea noe? He said that it was hurtful comment but he still smiled! LOL
When I was about to leave with super dan and peeps, I saw some parts of his rj. and he was imitating the way I screamed at him when he took my wallet to see my IC photo.
Its super funny hah.

In 6 hours time, I had so many tasks to do:
1. jam with my bandmates for replug internal compeition(which they have not came up with the schedule for jamming yet.)
2. Help to play for children's corner for all 3 saturdays starting from this week,
3. Learn 4 new songs. Hafta play for CC's kids for their christmas song items
4. Finish learning my last two variations of twinkle twinkle little stars.

(the 11th variations rhythm and ornaments...i screwed them up. I guess Im gna flunk for this fri's piano lesson. Mann..hope that my tchr wun ask me to play that to any of her students that day!)

Kimmy and lovein both gave me encouragement..
Well, Im moving on...but somehow, not very steadily.
I think I have to ignore all my feelings and just try my best to walk steadily in my life..
and not to look back again..Even when I dreamt about him agn, I had to really stop thinking about it the nxt moment when I wake up. I noe its tough. But im not alone in this(:
Just carry on my life lyk wad it is today now...it might be fine..perhaps time is the best medicine now..

Oh yea..I thought of something funny..
Super Dan told me that some people pronouced those words starting with W and change it to V.
I was thinking about this e.g. Wet. and that some people might pronouced it as Vet. LoL!
its cool haha!
double good!> ;p


Bye readers!

it's complicated...

Hey readers (:

See, how nice of me to greet u guys with a smile..how many bloggers does that to ya all?
Right, shall stop being random.

My blog is kinda dead yea?
Lots of words, no pics to live u guys up.

Well, today's the grandparent's day and I went out with my family members the whole day.
I had woke up from 5+ going 6am. I think i'm still quite strong and energetic despite knowing that I should be feeling tired and ALL worn out now.

I'm reading the lastest book of sophie kinstella's book. Hopefully by then, the new book is out becos I had finished reading the rest of her books.

Yea, I wun be able to get roll of honor for this year's SUN SCH attendance loh...becos I was absent for SS to go out for family outing. I didn't like it a lot at first...

First, my new havainas was stained with mud, den Mc's garlic chilli sauce. (not going to tell ya all how i stained it becos its really stupid).
Second, I queued up under the scorching sun for my granny and dad to play the grab and win game. And it ended up that both of them got a free pen...out of those fab prizes..
Third, I was super hungry and I almost got lost in science centre when my hp is running on low batt.

BUT, later on..
I had new pairs of shorts.
(mum refused to buy me that flower dress becos she thinks its ex and I wun wear it)
I had took loadds of fab pics
(and unglam shots too)
I bought a new pair of everlast shoe!
(and my sis told me that I dun haf to pay her back becos she wants me to do the following tasks:
1. Clean her shoe.
2. Air my smelly shoe
3. don't use her facial wash)
I saw evenlyn fong!!!
(But after I talked to her, I lost my sis and bro. They were nowhere to be found)
I ate dian xiao er for dinner
(But my sis, aunt and mum complained that I didnt served my granny well)
I got free amk hub bag and 1 coupon for $10 off at ichiban
(But my bro had to take a risk. He might not get a chance to get the lucky dip becos the receipt is a duplicated copy. I'm worried for him. COLD SWEAT)


Yea, so much so for today yea?

I think im hallucinating..
I dunnoe why...
Everywhere I go, I thought I saw u..
But when I give a second look, i realised that its not u..
I'm very excited when I dreamt about you..Becos I saw YOU in my dreams!
U were so real...talking to me..smiling and laughing..
I hope this happens in real life..But at the same time, I really dun want.
Oxymoron right?
U still exist in my mind..I want u to be out of my mind.
A friendship that u wun rmb...that u wouldn't think of...is the kind of friendship that I'm still holding on so tightly.
I showed it in my life that I let go..
But right at the back of my head, I still have not let go.
Becos u dun noe how easily I can fell in love just like that..
U never noe that I am this kind of girl..
U didn't realised that the girl that u've talked to the past 2 years still carrying a torch for u even knowing those "flaws" that u've told me.
U think that I cannot accept it..which is true..
But u dunnoe that I want to accept it and just forgive and forget about it.. Just have to tell me how impt I was at certain point of time and mabbe it will turn it around?
I noe wad to be..I noe its not going to be like in the past..
The kind of care u showed me..I'm trying to forget..
But the traces of footprints that u left in my life, seems to be there forever..

I remembered that I told you that I used to liked u in the past, and now no longer...
I lied. I really lied. But I had no choice at that time because my mummy and daddy wants you to stay away from me and stop talking to you..
Do you know how terrible I felt at that moment? The feeling that I misses someone so much but yet I couldn't say a thing to him?
No..U dun know..and I know u're not interested either..

Im super delighted when I know my friend had the piano scores of the song u first sent me.
But u noe wad? Im super sad when I couldnt find the scores yesterday.
I cant play the song perfectly lyk I used in the past.
there were soo many flaws.
Is this situation projecting my one-sided love?

Well, thats for u to find out and for me to noe!

BYE READERS!
its time to let go all my feelings.
Its all useless..makes me feel lousy..
Stupid girl stupid girl, I am a stupid girl.

REPRESSOR SITTING ON OPRESSOR!

HEY READERS!

My presentation was screwed as usual..
I filled with so many information that I screwed it all up when I start to say out the things I have to present..

I said the lacl repressor protein sits on the opressor! its suppose to be operator. No opressor..
LOL! Mann...I repeated that dam process for dunnoe how many times..Because there's a change in the variables thats why I had to explain why this and that happened which leads to the result. So, I had to repeat the process...until im so blur becos its so confusing..especially the lacl mutant and the lacy mutant thing..DAMMM...

Fatin never failed to make me laugh..
THE WAY she PRONOUCED polyermase and permease...LOL..and galatoside.
ITS SUPER funny lah!

Well well well...
I went back with dan and peeps today.
Its quite funny actually...becos I dun even noe what im doing hah.

hafta go now peeps..

BYE READERS!

2012

Hey readers!

My eyes were like dropping out..
REALLY TIRED-ED esp I had to go to church and work after that.

Anw, my appearance changed because that hairdresser cut my fringe SO SHORT that i wanna scream at her...I was really really super upset about it as it spoiled my $100 rebonded hair.

Oh well..quite a bad week isn't it? hmm, but i LOVE sat! me and keriann was playing piano for YP singpiration, there was a lot of things that we laughed at..which i cant really rmb! hah! And the discussion was quite a comprehensive one, about loneliness. I fear to have this feeling of loneliness. But somehow, there were things that I love to do alone, and don't feel lonely at all. For example, using com, reading books. Then I had RFG later. I didnt went there for MONTHS!! and I really enjoyed going to RFG loadds. there were alot of laughter..and though songbooks weren't available, yet we are able to sing it. Its really funny how they read those lyrics out. :D
Get to "stalk" evenlyn. She's really a nice, gentle girl :D

Back to today, my sis and I went to watch 2012!! IT WAS SUCH A NICE MOVIE!
I LOVE IT! It really made me get so scared and nervous when those "heros" were making out of their way from those disasters. MY SIS is really nice yo~
love it! she treat me to watch movie and KFC hehe!

BYE READERS! im gna sleep!

Felt like SLAPPING someone

Hey readers!

I'm damm pissed with two of my team mates.
Guess wad? I'm like doing 3 people's work today...

The thing is that two of my team mates became some hardcore game player liddat. They contributed so little that I could easily count what they did using 1 finger.

Before the 3rd meeting, I was chionging slides. I told this guy when he said, "lets continue to play leh" this: "Play ur head lah play..Do ppt NOW!" He just, "orh". and continued playing game with another team mate. Both of them laughed like nobody's business while i'm am there doing the slides. Such a cow, aren't they? Particular those obnoxious type. I got SUPER PISSED that i nearly stood up and wanna say, "STOP PLAYING WILL YOU?! YOU CAN'T EXPECT ME TO DO THE WORK FOR U RIGHT?!" and I really wanna walk off and leave them there until 1.30pm (thats when the presentation will start). But I didn't. I stayed calm and controlled my emotions so hard that I nearly wana cry.

U noe this guys should just go somewhere else and never come back?..
Somemore still dare to come to me and ask which slides he hafta read. So I straightaway told him, " U didn't do anything, what u expect me to do?" He kept quiet...I hope he feels gulity about it although I felt that in his heart, he might have been thinking that, "walau-eh! You think you very smart uh? f*** off".

I raised this issue to my dad and mum. my dad recommended me that if they wanna play game can. But they have to pay me $50 if they still wan be to do the work. C'mon, I dun do EXTRA work for FREE ok? and I must see the $50 first before I do anything. If they wanna stop playing, I must see the slides done.

I told my mum that I will add in comments and tell my faccy about this. So that that particular guy dun even get a C for today's grade. But my mum said that becos it was partly my fault for not warning them about it, thats why I should give them or rather that particular guy a chance.
So in the end I didn't put in additional comments. But I did gave them poor evaluation especially that particular one the came to me to ask what slides he hafta read. Becos the other did 2 slides. But one of the slides, I have to edit >50% of it.

If they do this to me agn, I WILL SHOW NO MERCY.

So much so for today yea?
I shall forgive and do my best to forget this.
But I can't forget, I shall make this one of my learning issues, "NOT TO BE MERCIFUL TO THOSE OBNOXIOUS COWS WHO DOESN'T EVEN DO WORK."

BYE READERS

Unknowingly

Hey readers! [:

glad to see me updating my blog?
=X

Let me just share my day with you through "the Unknowingly"

Unknowingly, I had finished one full plate of 3 pieces of fishy and more den 20+ of beans.
Unknowingly, I just ate one full box of grapes and finished the whole bowl of soup + the veggies in it
Unknowingly, I shocked lovein with a brownie ice cream cake, singing HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONG.
Unknowingly, I held my pee for more than 1+hour and jammed with mr norman(jazz improvisatn wkshop pianist dude)
Unknowingly, I dreamt of two of my classmates in my dream last night. Fighting over for me.
Unknowingly, I scored 3/3 for chem quiz without knowing how to do a single thing.
Unknowingly, my earpiece revived
Unknowingly, one of my most retarded pic was with chris
Unknowingly, I had signs of balding?!
Unknowingly, Jeff snorted : He tried to breathe while he's laughing...so he ended up snorting! the LOL of the day!
Unknowingly, my boobi was elbowed by chris' arm. *DAMMMMM*
Unknowingly, I told my classmate I dun wanna swim cos I dun wanna show him my ugly figure
Unknowingly, I took more than 50+pics today on webcam max
Unknowingly, I havent bathed for the entire day until now. more than 16hours!

SO BYE READERS! i had to go to bathe!! =X

Remember the truth...that it is gone

Hey readers[:

I dunno why out of the sudden I felt like crying..
Well, u guys and gals know that I'm kind of a cheerful and got very high up easily..a very "ticklish" kind of girl.

I dunno how to say it...
perhaps I dun like my life it is..
I dun wanna be so protected..
I just wanna experience more things...

Perhaps nowadays I felt really "dried". There's hardly any msgs from friends..
The most recent one, yet the most surprising msg that I had received from my friend was to go out for a movie. That's from YueFang, my banquet colleague. She dun msg me first from wad i noe..

Yeah..But of cos, I did had some fun in sch. Received loadds of funny things from classmates. Esp chris lah. He's a great joker man! Thanks a lot chris. I noe he wun/dun read this blog. But he really does made my day brighter! u guys should really see his "artistic" drawing. very cute indeed! Like me liddat! *opps* im not bhb-ing here. I'm really cute (ugly but ADORABLE!) He drew me monster/ghost..I dunnoe wad it is exactly..It has uneven set of teeth. So i commented that the upper teeth only got 3 and the lower 4 and asked y? So he very funny. Drew me the exact kind but this time, even set of teeth..but the teeths are arranged in a circle. It's like a mouth with a circled gum-cum-teeth. *faints-laughs*. I think he's trying to make me laugh and not get too stressed up. But I hope that he will not think that my "auntie visited me" and thats why I'm behaving like this..I mean u noe..the thing hasn't come yet lah. so I dunnid to whisper and I am carefree. Not carefree-ing.
(oh wadever..)

Of cos, today's presentation was a little funny...cos wangchao coughed until so funny. His tongue are like twisted? I dunnoe...but it sounded funny when he's coughing and trying to say something at the same time. The most unforgettable joke of yesterday was that lovein pronounced pros to prawns..When shes explaining on the pros...I cant keep gleaming when I saw the words pros on the screen!! had to control..

I dun wan SUGAR RUSH to be an excuse/reason for me to be so highed up in class...but ya noe..
I'm pretty bad at controlling my laughter. I mean seriously!! U just had to keep looking at me for 3-5seconds, I would burst out an awkward laugh.

Some random stuffs:

1. A bird nearly crashed on me when I was eating western with kimmy and friends

2. JJ asked me to refill warm water and passed me the bottle. In the end, I threw away his bottle even when lovein reminded me that JJ seems to want me to refill the water for him and not throw it away. But I still threw it away..I felt that something is wrong. So i went back class to ask jingjie is he want me to throw/refill the bottle. Den he said refill warm water. I was like "OH-NO-I-JUST-THREW-YOUR-BOTTLE-AWAY!" So I hurriedly took the bottle out of the recycled bin and washed it. Guess wad? I refilled cold water for him. Finally when i got back class..he complained, "I said warm water!!!" So I went out of the class and threw the cold water away and refilled the hot water(75%) and cold water(25%). In the end, he complained that the water was too hot. So well..I just smiled and said sorry uh. Den he shook his head. I was giving awkward laughs...I mean..how can i be so blur?! I'm a waitress and this happened? mann..what will happen if I got back to work? I'll just be as screwed as JJ's bottle incident.

3. I just posted something on my msn(pm) that: starfish is feeling tired-ed. I can see...but i could hardly hear or do anything well. TRUST ME! my team mates knew it!

4. I pressed on chris' phone ytd and I saw a lot of sweeties inside his inbox msg.
I was thinking, he called his gf sweetie, and his gf called him honey.
combine becomes...SWEET HONEY? <3 well, I think that their love is as sweet as honey!
P.S.: I'm so good at simile! :D

5. A few weeks back, I was walking behind lovein n her bf when walking back to wdlands mrt. Me and kim was imitating their actions behind them secretly! *opps*

Last but not least,
I was reminded that for once I believed that we'll meet in a special place, on a special day..
I was also reminded that I will never believe that we'll meet in a special place, on a special day..
So, the reality is that it is gone, never to give a second look again..
NEVER

Bye readers(:

I wish I had you...

Hey readers! [:

I'm supposed to be at work now..
but, I've told my superiors that I had gt revision to do and my mum dun lemme go cos theres papers this week, which is true.

I had dunno why I had this suddenly feeling that I want some company..
I've been feeling so alone..
Wherever I go and whatever I do, I always hope that someone would be around to do it with me..
it'll be much more fun and impact-ful..
And whenever I heard the song Love song sang by Taylor Swift, telling "romeo" to save her and she's been waiting for him...it sort of projects my life a little in this area..

I had no idea when my romeo will come..and even to get a chance to hear from my romeo that he love me and that's all he really knows..

*sighs* Until now there's not even a single sign..and i realized that sub-consciously, I've been waiting for my romeo to appear..

today I had a little chat with Melissa and mag mag. Mel was saying that it is good not to be attached in a certain way. She would rather remain single den to be with a wrong guy. and mag was saying that there's a lot of people in a complicated relationship. Those who are single yet unavailable kind.."flirting".

I dunno how the world is like now..its simply telling me that not many people were conservative now..very "open". Sometimes wrong can seems oft so right. Little things that we do might be acceptable in our sight and we claimed that there's nothing wrong..But as children of God, I need to consider that whether the things that I've claimed "right" is pleasing to the Lord a not. (or whether it will grief the Holy Spirit). Shared this thought with Kim in one of the morning when going to sch. cos she hasn't heard of backslided Christians. But the one thing about backslided Christians were that, the Holy Spirit will continue to stay with that person..

Many things that I did were wrong...I still haven't got rid of the using words like shit and omg. Its just so hard to control..and oso to control my emotions and feelings.

anw, i gtg revise now

Bye readers


P.S.
Tell me!!
tons of mistakes I have made..
when will I get away from this??