Replug internal competition: 1st experience

HEY READERS!

my life is bad now..

I don't have $$...My exams are coming up...I can't have extra time to do the things I like...
I made a lot of people unhappy...My life is so disorganised..There's so many things to do in so little time...

Thinking back, I really hope that Christmas and UTs will quickly pass..
And that I'll be able to go back to work, earn $$, save $$ and spend $$!!
Chilling out with friends will be good..
With mu tous, with random clique, church-ties, classmates/ex-classmates(E37G or primary sch friends!), replugios, banquet friends etc. :D

I desire to take a roller coaster ride!! Hope my parents will bring me there!

So far...
there might be replug outing and there's steamboat with SS class :DD

Anw, back to today...my life is sad..bad...filled with disappointments..kinda empty too..
I screwed up my playing for my band by playing one bar ahead of my guitarists and percussionist. They were really awesome! and nice people too! but I played so badly..
Well, there were positive comments..I think the audience (repluggios) seems to noticed that I played with a little lack of confidence...but mabbe they didnt know that I was playing faster and thats why it sounded weird...

Anw, I partial for chem today. Was really pissed...
Just didnt get to establish certain concepts (which confused me)
So I went off with jeff and parthiban. Ended up playing with some malay yo-yos. I dunno what's that...some really old games that start with T.

Yea..I tried to revise cog. But failed..Failed to understand problem 8.
Played bejeweled too..Mann..This is bad...

I flunked piano, studies, work(didnt go for work), walk with God was unstable, my body size shot up cos I gained 4 kg during this sem( it was all the chocolates fault)..
EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE WAS SO HORRIBLE
You wun want to be like me..

Bye readers
(the owner of this blog suxs. so don't bother to read this blog anymore)

The highest form of love

Hey readers!

Havent been updating my blog for quite sometime..

A lot of things happened during the week...
The week have been tiring, tough and TERROR!
But the Lord never failed to bless me!

Sorry Lord I seek Your forgiveness..
cos I had seen something which I should not see..

1. I've watched 2 girls one cup - About two girls, "les-ing" together with one of the girl's excretory product by licking the shit and kissing each other with the shit in their mouth and puking the shit into each other mouth.

2. He's in a relationship with another girl. Saw the facebook pics. I'd give him my deepest blessing to the new couple. (Hope that he'll treat her well and likewise, the girl with treat him well) God bless you...
Its a blessing in disguise to me too..Cos finally things are coming to an end and I know what to be becos I know that we're not meant to be. Also, ever since I knew him, i always think of him..which isn't good. I should think of God more because I am assured and know that God loved me.

The week was tiring as the problem of the day was so hard to solve. and there was a lot of practices and CE workshop going on. More and more songs I have to learn and improvise. Church, my band and grade 8 piano piece from mdm lim.

Sigh..BUT because the Lord has been seeing me through the week and blessed me...
i had this in LEO. I erased away my UT grades (to make this pic looks better) :D

Anw, during one of the days in the week, my family had quite a fair bit of discussion about certain things..
My sis told us that her friend thinks that if parents could just forgive their kids without having the kids to sacrifice anything (unblemished lamb), why cant God do the same thing? As in not sacrificing the Lord Jesus Christ to pay the penalty of our sins?

Of cos I know the answer in my heart that Christ came down to demonstrate His love for us so that through him we can have salvation.

But I do not have any verses to back up..
Very interesting-ly, today's worship has brought me to the verses:
Hebrews 7: 26-27 ->
v26: For such a high priest has fitting for us who is Holy, harmless, undefiled, separate from sinners and has become higher than heavens;
v27: who does not need daily as those high priests, to offer up sacrifices, first for his own sins, and then for the people's, for this He did once for all when he offered Himself.

Surely, this is the COMPLETE work. We can't comprehend the holiness of God and certainly, even when something that were being told by others (non-believers) is logical, it does not mean that it is spiritually logical thing. I can only say that Christ can choose not to come down and suffer this crucifixion pain etc. But He came down because He love us (including me).

In 1 John 4:12-19, it tells us that God is love.
No one has seen God at any time. If we love one another, God abides in us, and His love has been perfected in us.
By this we know that we abide in Him, and He in us, because He has given us of His Spirit.

And we see and testify that the Father has sent the Son as Saviour of the world.
Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides in Him, and he in God.
And we have known and believed the love of God has for us. God is love, and he who abides in love abides in God, and God in him.

Love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness in the day of judgment; because as He is, so are we in this world.
(meaning that the Lord has been judged when he was doing the work of salvation while He's on earth. Day of judgment is simply the day where we will be judged. I think most likely I won't be on earth by the time)
There is no fear in love; but perfect casts out fear, because fear involves in torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.

We love Him because He first loved us.

(this is one of the reasons why I chose to become a child of God. Because Christ loved me even before I came to know who He is. The love that He demonstrated was beyond words, and I am deeply touched by all the things that He hath done.)

There is no greater love than this..
For a man to lay down His life for a friend.

This is the highest form of love. (which is the Perfect one)

Sadly in my life till now, I have not shown how much I love God..
time to build up and show my love for GOD!

Anw, yesterday I had quite a long day.
Wasn't feeling quite awesome or good before I met up with jeff, chris and jeff's friend(: Was laughing most of the time. Couldn't believe that studying could make my day brighter!

BYE READERS!
will be having competition tmr! Pray for me yo~

the usual happenings, but I felt better today?

Hey readers!

I think I'm really getting into maths..
WHY?! I dreamt of me discussing maths questions with my team mates. (DURING NAP) and said someone is stupid because he can put the R=0 and hence he can get the answers by following the sequences. (I'M SUCH A GONER)

I laughed a lot. Really enjoyed working with my team mates..
I cant help beaming at the webcam when I wore that cranky "harry potter" spects. Took a lots of pics with it. HAHA

Chris' Mr Ant is still sleeping in faccy's drawer..
When is he going to collect it? Poor Mr. Ant.
Mr. Ant sounds weird meh? I think its a cool name.

Mingshen was playing with hangman. LOL
When he told me he keep on dying, I said that because he's lousy.
Guess what? He smiled yea noe? He said that it was hurtful comment but he still smiled! LOL
When I was about to leave with super dan and peeps, I saw some parts of his rj. and he was imitating the way I screamed at him when he took my wallet to see my IC photo.
Its super funny hah.

In 6 hours time, I had so many tasks to do:
1. jam with my bandmates for replug internal compeition(which they have not came up with the schedule for jamming yet.)
2. Help to play for children's corner for all 3 saturdays starting from this week,
3. Learn 4 new songs. Hafta play for CC's kids for their christmas song items
4. Finish learning my last two variations of twinkle twinkle little stars.

(the 11th variations rhythm and ornaments...i screwed them up. I guess Im gna flunk for this fri's piano lesson. Mann..hope that my tchr wun ask me to play that to any of her students that day!)

Kimmy and lovein both gave me encouragement..
Well, Im moving on...but somehow, not very steadily.
I think I have to ignore all my feelings and just try my best to walk steadily in my life..
and not to look back again..Even when I dreamt about him agn, I had to really stop thinking about it the nxt moment when I wake up. I noe its tough. But im not alone in this(:
Just carry on my life lyk wad it is today now...it might be fine..perhaps time is the best medicine now..

Oh yea..I thought of something funny..
Super Dan told me that some people pronouced those words starting with W and change it to V.
I was thinking about this e.g. Wet. and that some people might pronouced it as Vet. LoL!
its cool haha!
double good!> ;p


Bye readers!

it's complicated...

Hey readers (:

See, how nice of me to greet u guys with a smile..how many bloggers does that to ya all?
Right, shall stop being random.

My blog is kinda dead yea?
Lots of words, no pics to live u guys up.

Well, today's the grandparent's day and I went out with my family members the whole day.
I had woke up from 5+ going 6am. I think i'm still quite strong and energetic despite knowing that I should be feeling tired and ALL worn out now.

I'm reading the lastest book of sophie kinstella's book. Hopefully by then, the new book is out becos I had finished reading the rest of her books.

Yea, I wun be able to get roll of honor for this year's SUN SCH attendance loh...becos I was absent for SS to go out for family outing. I didn't like it a lot at first...

First, my new havainas was stained with mud, den Mc's garlic chilli sauce. (not going to tell ya all how i stained it becos its really stupid).
Second, I queued up under the scorching sun for my granny and dad to play the grab and win game. And it ended up that both of them got a free pen...out of those fab prizes..
Third, I was super hungry and I almost got lost in science centre when my hp is running on low batt.

BUT, later on..
I had new pairs of shorts.
(mum refused to buy me that flower dress becos she thinks its ex and I wun wear it)
I had took loadds of fab pics
(and unglam shots too)
I bought a new pair of everlast shoe!
(and my sis told me that I dun haf to pay her back becos she wants me to do the following tasks:
1. Clean her shoe.
2. Air my smelly shoe
3. don't use her facial wash)
I saw evenlyn fong!!!
(But after I talked to her, I lost my sis and bro. They were nowhere to be found)
I ate dian xiao er for dinner
(But my sis, aunt and mum complained that I didnt served my granny well)
I got free amk hub bag and 1 coupon for $10 off at ichiban
(But my bro had to take a risk. He might not get a chance to get the lucky dip becos the receipt is a duplicated copy. I'm worried for him. COLD SWEAT)


Yea, so much so for today yea?

I think im hallucinating..
I dunnoe why...
Everywhere I go, I thought I saw u..
But when I give a second look, i realised that its not u..
I'm very excited when I dreamt about you..Becos I saw YOU in my dreams!
U were so real...talking to me..smiling and laughing..
I hope this happens in real life..But at the same time, I really dun want.
Oxymoron right?
U still exist in my mind..I want u to be out of my mind.
A friendship that u wun rmb...that u wouldn't think of...is the kind of friendship that I'm still holding on so tightly.
I showed it in my life that I let go..
But right at the back of my head, I still have not let go.
Becos u dun noe how easily I can fell in love just like that..
U never noe that I am this kind of girl..
U didn't realised that the girl that u've talked to the past 2 years still carrying a torch for u even knowing those "flaws" that u've told me.
U think that I cannot accept it..which is true..
But u dunnoe that I want to accept it and just forgive and forget about it.. Just have to tell me how impt I was at certain point of time and mabbe it will turn it around?
I noe wad to be..I noe its not going to be like in the past..
The kind of care u showed me..I'm trying to forget..
But the traces of footprints that u left in my life, seems to be there forever..

I remembered that I told you that I used to liked u in the past, and now no longer...
I lied. I really lied. But I had no choice at that time because my mummy and daddy wants you to stay away from me and stop talking to you..
Do you know how terrible I felt at that moment? The feeling that I misses someone so much but yet I couldn't say a thing to him?
No..U dun know..and I know u're not interested either..

Im super delighted when I know my friend had the piano scores of the song u first sent me.
But u noe wad? Im super sad when I couldnt find the scores yesterday.
I cant play the song perfectly lyk I used in the past.
there were soo many flaws.
Is this situation projecting my one-sided love?

Well, thats for u to find out and for me to noe!

BYE READERS!
its time to let go all my feelings.
Its all useless..makes me feel lousy..
Stupid girl stupid girl, I am a stupid girl.

REPRESSOR SITTING ON OPRESSOR!

HEY READERS!

My presentation was screwed as usual..
I filled with so many information that I screwed it all up when I start to say out the things I have to present..

I said the lacl repressor protein sits on the opressor! its suppose to be operator. No opressor..
LOL! Mann...I repeated that dam process for dunnoe how many times..Because there's a change in the variables thats why I had to explain why this and that happened which leads to the result. So, I had to repeat the process...until im so blur becos its so confusing..especially the lacl mutant and the lacy mutant thing..DAMMM...

Fatin never failed to make me laugh..
THE WAY she PRONOUCED polyermase and permease...LOL..and galatoside.
ITS SUPER funny lah!

Well well well...
I went back with dan and peeps today.
Its quite funny actually...becos I dun even noe what im doing hah.

hafta go now peeps..

BYE READERS!

2012

Hey readers!

My eyes were like dropping out..
REALLY TIRED-ED esp I had to go to church and work after that.

Anw, my appearance changed because that hairdresser cut my fringe SO SHORT that i wanna scream at her...I was really really super upset about it as it spoiled my $100 rebonded hair.

Oh well..quite a bad week isn't it? hmm, but i LOVE sat! me and keriann was playing piano for YP singpiration, there was a lot of things that we laughed at..which i cant really rmb! hah! And the discussion was quite a comprehensive one, about loneliness. I fear to have this feeling of loneliness. But somehow, there were things that I love to do alone, and don't feel lonely at all. For example, using com, reading books. Then I had RFG later. I didnt went there for MONTHS!! and I really enjoyed going to RFG loadds. there were alot of laughter..and though songbooks weren't available, yet we are able to sing it. Its really funny how they read those lyrics out. :D
Get to "stalk" evenlyn. She's really a nice, gentle girl :D

Back to today, my sis and I went to watch 2012!! IT WAS SUCH A NICE MOVIE!
I LOVE IT! It really made me get so scared and nervous when those "heros" were making out of their way from those disasters. MY SIS is really nice yo~
love it! she treat me to watch movie and KFC hehe!

BYE READERS! im gna sleep!

Felt like SLAPPING someone

Hey readers!

I'm damm pissed with two of my team mates.
Guess wad? I'm like doing 3 people's work today...

The thing is that two of my team mates became some hardcore game player liddat. They contributed so little that I could easily count what they did using 1 finger.

Before the 3rd meeting, I was chionging slides. I told this guy when he said, "lets continue to play leh" this: "Play ur head lah play..Do ppt NOW!" He just, "orh". and continued playing game with another team mate. Both of them laughed like nobody's business while i'm am there doing the slides. Such a cow, aren't they? Particular those obnoxious type. I got SUPER PISSED that i nearly stood up and wanna say, "STOP PLAYING WILL YOU?! YOU CAN'T EXPECT ME TO DO THE WORK FOR U RIGHT?!" and I really wanna walk off and leave them there until 1.30pm (thats when the presentation will start). But I didn't. I stayed calm and controlled my emotions so hard that I nearly wana cry.

U noe this guys should just go somewhere else and never come back?..
Somemore still dare to come to me and ask which slides he hafta read. So I straightaway told him, " U didn't do anything, what u expect me to do?" He kept quiet...I hope he feels gulity about it although I felt that in his heart, he might have been thinking that, "walau-eh! You think you very smart uh? f*** off".

I raised this issue to my dad and mum. my dad recommended me that if they wanna play game can. But they have to pay me $50 if they still wan be to do the work. C'mon, I dun do EXTRA work for FREE ok? and I must see the $50 first before I do anything. If they wanna stop playing, I must see the slides done.

I told my mum that I will add in comments and tell my faccy about this. So that that particular guy dun even get a C for today's grade. But my mum said that becos it was partly my fault for not warning them about it, thats why I should give them or rather that particular guy a chance.
So in the end I didn't put in additional comments. But I did gave them poor evaluation especially that particular one the came to me to ask what slides he hafta read. Becos the other did 2 slides. But one of the slides, I have to edit >50% of it.

If they do this to me agn, I WILL SHOW NO MERCY.

So much so for today yea?
I shall forgive and do my best to forget this.
But I can't forget, I shall make this one of my learning issues, "NOT TO BE MERCIFUL TO THOSE OBNOXIOUS COWS WHO DOESN'T EVEN DO WORK."

BYE READERS