couldn't get it clear

Hey readers!

Happenings:
Eileen's birthday- She was surprised to see me there!! and she likes the birthday gifts (:

WORKWORKWORK- the wedding buffet dinner was super slack. $30 very easy to earn :D BUT! I was so embarrased when that indian guy asked for vodka orange, I thought he was trying to say water orange. orange + water. so I gave him that. and he asked, whats this? I said we don't serve real oranges. so I mixed the orange soda with water. Then he said, No..I mean vodka (I heard water agn) orange! and his friend shook his head. and I finally understood that its hard liqour drink. But he has already asked another waiter to get. so I just stood there.

Well..got another day that I chiong for work. 7am-11pm. SUPER SHAGGED. plus the day after work hafta go church. Really forced myself to wakie wakie.

church! [sunday school anni]- sad by the number of girls that attended. well, I was sticking with yinsan the whole evening. I talked to a guy in depot walk that I think I didn't talked to him for years. and I took pics (:

Replug with jammers arena (jazz workshop): SUPER FUN! funny too!! Mr chia (my former music teacher in NBSS, now coaching in replug) was teaching theory. He wanna test us on the 13th note/6th/5th note of any keys he named. So I was very excited and enthu! Iq kept asking me to keep quiet. cos I keep answering first! LOL! [: den Warren started to imitate my facebook pic. He said that even though my granny looked grumpy I still gave the twist and happy (act cute) face.

SHOPPING with kimlaopo- I owed her $23!! Crazy shopping and it was fun (: go around hunting for the chanel ring after I thought I won't be buying becos its so ex! But well...I just love it when I first saw it. so i bought it. We went hunting for my fairy necklace..and I was disappointed that I couldn't find it in orchard wisma. den somehow we decided to go to 313@somerset cos kimmy never went in there b4. So I'VE GOT MY FAIRY NECKLACE! beautiful! On the way home after kimmy left, I went to AMK to collect that lovely white cardigan that has got ribbons on both side of it. awws..really felt so happy. Feeling excited, I went home to try out the new clothes and new outfit together with the new accessories. Pampered, yes it was [:

Everyday is a new day, a new beginning and a new hope. New feelings were established too (:

bye readers!

shag

Hey readers...

I haven't been blogging much.
Have been crazy working.

OH yes, about work...it makes me mad and happy.
WHY MAD?
Park palace manager wants me to get to park palace restaurant to work for the evening after I've finish setting up at the banquet's canning room. Well..canning room was used for park palace function, but canning room is somewhere that I'm more familiar with because its at banquet. So I wanna stay there and don't wanna go down to park palace restaurant to work. The captain told the manager if I could stay at canning a not, then he say cannot cos he want me to work at p.palace as I've worked there for quite sometime. (sians!)

THATS NOT IT!! I had to takkaire of so many tables. Practically one person to 3 tables. Serve until i wanna die. Den those aunties that helped out in canning room end off early and came down to help. One of the aunties asked me why i wanna coming down to parkpalace. she said she received $20 of angbao money and furthermore, they felt very comfortable and relax working there. RIGHT after I heard this, I WAS DAMMM PISSED!

It got me complaining about this stupid manager for the whole day because his handwritting suxs. and I have to go up and down finding him for stupid signature so that I can collect pay and get that troublesome account lady to approve my work voucher(so I went to the account>to the security>to the ballroom>security>account *repeat 2 times) this took me HALF AN HOUR LONG and I've got like 45 mins for break only. So I hafta eat like hungry monkey that day for dinner. MEGA PISSED. Even worse, my shoes are breaking apart. It cannot be worn but hafta no choice but to work with torn shoes.

Walking home, I felt super pissed and a bit of fear aroused. the surroundings were too quiet and what's worse was the slasher that goes around disfiguring females' face by slashing them with knife, haven't get caught yet. (But I have to remember God's promise. That even I walked in a lonesome dark valley, He's with me. And I shouldn't fear)

HOME SWEET HOME. I felt really shagged that day. and i hate to work at park palace.
I REALLY LOVE BANQUET.

Next, happy working? well thats cos i'm working in banquet on some fine day(working hours: 9pm-5am) I'm not trying to kill myself by working until so late. its just once in a while and whats more, my manager booked a suite for me and ruoxi to sleep!! SHIOK SHIOK! HOTEL ROOM 1018! i didn't get to sleep much becos the next day got video shoot for repluggios at rp. But wad was shiok was, theres food the next day morning when I woke up((: and meeting the repluggios was dammm fun! All that stupid jokes and photos really made me laughed hard. I hadn't felt like this for quite sometimes already. Surely, only rp friends can crack me up most of the time. :D

I don't know whether i'm feeling alone or was it serenity?
Life was busy busy like bee but I don't really feel that I like this kind of life...
Perhaps I want somebody to need me. Yup, need and want is a totally different thing.


anw, today sunday school..
I had NEVER in my life thought of this...
That I'm a gift from the Father to the Son (L.J.C.).
I always see that the Lord Jesus was a gift from the Father, to bring eternal salvation to me.
But when the sunday school teacher said that I'm a gift to the Son. Just a gift, although I cannot bring eternal salvation like He could, I felt really special. I don't want to be too complacent and live my life any-o-how. And if i'm living my life any-o-how, it will mean this truth, I can't get to heaven. Because it reflects that I don't treasure the Lord and what He has done for me.

Sometime many Christians lay a foot on the world and the other on the church, and this cannot be so. (I cannot serve 2 masters) Many christians, including myself always prayed that the Lord will help us to do well (like wealth) in life, which is not something that we should not be doing. He is my master and I shouldn't be asking of Him to help me in this and that. I should do His will instead(: Anw, loving the world will bring forth temptations and its a snare. I love today's lesson. it has too much of a impact. I really need to check out my goals. If the goal is the same as an unbeliever, I should change it to some goal that will honor and glorify the ONE.


BYE READERS![:

The hopeless romantic

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I've been reading the book called the hopeless romantic handbook. Just started a few pages only but realised a lot of things and agreed to that point of view...

The hopeless romantic- chose to take the risk of never be able to be with the Mr. Right rather than being with the wrong guy. She wanted to have her own fairytale. and if it doesn't exist, at least..she waited.

For me..I'm like the hopeless romantic. But its not because I want to have my own fairytale (that guy has to be six foot tall and smart but will still have to listen to my comments. handsome and adorable), its because this life is not of my own and also about my God. So my Mr. Right must be someone who loves the Lord more than I do. Even that person might be someone that is handsome, cute, loves me, likes me, very receptive to the Lord's word, but doesn't love God more than I do, he's not my Mr. Right.

May this blog post set as a reminder to myself, that if I happened to like someone who met my earthly requirements (handsome and cute and smart and rich and loves me only etc.), I will be able to make my own stand, and if necessary, show this blog post to him so that he'd understand someday.


Food for thoughts

Like V.S. Love

Unknowingly, I shared this like v.s. love with ruoxi and kenneth (they're my banquet colleagues).

Well..the difference between like and love is that...
You can like someone now and the next minute you know, that person whom you like did something terrible to you and you dislike that person. Liking a person can fade away. Some people will refer it as chemistry. Once the chemistry is gone, you don't like that person anymore, and you don't want to be with that person anymore.

But a true relationship involves love. Love is when no matter how much that person did those terrible things to you, you're still able to forgive them and hence love them.
-Forgiving is not about ignoring what that person just did to you and tried to ignore/bear with those hurtful feelings. Its about able to accept those feelings but still graciously give that person a chance to repent (and hoping that he/she will stop making that mistake which causes you to feel annoyed in particular)

In short, love is when that person whom you liked b4 and doesn't like her/him anymore, you will still give that person your heart and it will last forever.

That person still means a lot to you.
He/she is so special that you sometimes felt so scared that because there's only one Him/Her.

Just some opinions(:

Bye readers(:

I'm also a human too...

Hey readers...

A few days ago, I had a short chat via sms with jon jon.
Well..He asked how was my val's day and I told him I had no valentine.
Den he asked why?..he tot I poly alrdy so met a lotsa shuai ges.

So I just told him that I do met one...but he's just a special friend and I asked him about his valentine. He told me how he met her and they broke up but ended up together agn becos that girl was still very nice to him thou they were separated.

Hmm..and he asked why that person stepped out of my life..
And I simply told him due to some obligations here and there..

and he asked how den? cos youth comes only once.

Obviously I noe that youth comes once only in my life. But I also wish that my fairytale could happen now and I won't have bear the pain of missing someone so much anymore. Its a tinge of sadness to know that I just can't be like any other girls that could readily accept someone whom she likes. I struggled and I sometimes really wanna get out of this "zone" and break away and be with someone I like. But I can't. becos this life of mine, is not about me alone. Its also about HIM who lives in my heart. That person of my life must be someone whom pleases HIM, and not just any guy of my liking and that is it.

And its not only about love relationship that I struggled. I have to obey my mum and always cannot go beyond her limit to go out late at night. So I can seldom stay overnight at some places and I'd usually get scolded when I came home late even though I told my mum that I would be late. Becos she wans be to get home by certain time and doesn't allow me to stay on till late.

I'm also a human...A teenage girl who longs for love and comfort and be in someone's care. But, becos wad I am now doesn't allow me to do it. This is a fact that I must learn to take it in...
I just hope that there wun be anyone coming into my life anymore...becos I hate the feeling of letting go of someone when I can't just bear to. I really hate it...It feels so lousy. This feeling suxs.. really suxs.

But im still grateful that I have a happy heart. That will keep my life more interesting and wun make me an emo girl..

My life is Yours. Make it wonderful(:

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Can you believe it?

HEY READERS!

I'VE GOT A BIG BIG NEWS! esp to those girls who live in yishun area
There's this guy (chinese uncle with very short hair) who will take the knife and stab people.

First victim got stabbed on the face
Second on the back
third..im not sure.

So try to be alert and look around!!!

*xiue got his pic on his phone!*
LOL

oh well...
Its quite a bored-ed day ytd.
Cos its like no youngsters and mostly elderly.
They speak hokkien and i dont knw how to join in the convo.
So for hours, I've been sitting there...rotting away.

But today was different!
Met my sec school friends agn!
Visiting to Mr Soon's house was really fun!
ESP his son ISAAC! SO CUTE! played WII most of the time and had lotsa fun chatting and laughing at how pann and junice played boxing for wii.
SUPER CUTE!!!!

LOVE today mann!


bye readers!

Had a bad dream again

Hey readers...

The bad dream is getting worse everyday.

First I dreamt that I was arguing for the chem questions that it should be something like this and not like that.

Second was the cactus dream...
I dreamt that a friend said he wanna bring me to somewhere.

And he fed me with 2 sleeping pills. I pretend that I swallowed it down.
When the truck of wood logs starts to move, he carried me and chased after the truck.
Finally he threw me up the truck and there I accidentally swallowed the sleeping pills.
He was dead tired after he threw me up and he ran away.

When I finally woke up, I found myself in a place full of cactus. And a cactus spike poked me. Its like a mosquito bite. But it kept on bleeding. I rmbed when I pulled out the white sleeveless shirt, I saw blood. (circle).

I went off to find him. He thought that I will not know that he's the one who threw me to the cactus place. But he doesn't know that I didn't took the sleeping pills before he threw me up. So I went to see him and asked him why did he have to do this to me. WHY?...

and I woke up feeling really frightened and my heart turnt sour.

I dunno how many many bad dreams i'll had..
But, this dream is really scary...


Bye readers

Still a long way to go...

Hey readers[:

Today is the last day of school. Next week will be UT3 (exams)

Well...
I feel that...
It does not matter how the story started well a not..
But it is really about how the story ends that will make it a good story.

Somehow, it sucks. The feeling sucks.
I don't know why...May be I know, but I don't want to accept the fact...
I'm still in love. this time, I'm very sure that this time...it is one-sided.

Anyway, random: my sis called me via phone call to get bathtowel for her. =.="
I said that she's siao. haha. shes the girl that carries phone with her in the toilet while bathing.
She can talk to her bf while bathing and dunno how many many times she dropped her phone into the toilet bowl =X

Okay well, my mum just told me something very scary.
She told me of some guy who stab people (victims were all ladies) around yishun area.
I became very fearful. Still a bit now. But all things I commit it to the Lord. Pray that the guy who go around stabbing people will realised that he shouldn't hurt anybody anymore. And God willing, the Lord will be able to touch his heart and stop committing crimes.

WATCHed funny videos with my mum and dad :D
The just for laughs gags at waterpark was really a funny one! :D
and how the husky said "i love you" was really cute and funny! :D

shall stop blogging now.
miss all the awesome W15H kids(:

The fun shouldn't stop here.
make it alive!
BYE READERS! [: