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Emo time is over! who says holidays can't be exciting without some one whom you like cares and concern for you?!

Tmr going back school to prepare for artsplatter. Will be doing day and night by kid cudi:)
Hmm, got some ideas for it already! HAHHAA! can't wait to try out tmr!!!!

I better go sleep now, cos at any moment of time, my mum will check on me to see whether im asleep already a not!!!

BTW, I DON'T LIKE my crushed BCMJ's new hair cut!!! SOOOOOOOOOOOO UGLLYYYYYYY!!!! ARGHS! why do he have to cut his pretty and nice, beautiful (sexy !!) hair?
I love his previous hair style...so natural...with the fringe in front... AWWWWSS
so in love with it! hahhaa!


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REPLUG CAMP WAS AWESOME FUN! and funny :D

I was really worn out by the end of replug camp.
One of my juniors asked if I gt boyfriend a not, if dun haf he wanna be my boyfriend!
LOL! I was like hahaha, I really got no boyfriend and I don't have boyfriend before. den he didn't like ask anymore. Well, its so causal :D

Den Iqmal asked about who i wanna date with in replug honestly..
I lied yo...I've got no intention to date dilly (the one that I said) and wayne (the one everyone want me to go steady with)..I wanted to have a date out with fifi/cheng/danny they all.. :D

But well...a date is a date. Not like ok?

UPDATES:
1. I was the only who played soccer with repluggios
2. I scored 3 goals for soccer!
3. They asked if I was a guy in disguise..and ask me to shave my hair LOL
4. When cheng asked why mary like john. I said because john dick is harry.
(answer was inspired by the famous maths question...always got tom, dick and harry had 9 marbles...)
5. Warren piggyback me and suddenly freak me out by carrying me when taking pics.
6. I danced crazily during the last night of replug camp's party.
7. I gave ideas for two keyboardists and that drained out all my brain juices.

But when all these things past and no more replug camp..it was time to work.
I really went back to banquet today to work. On the way home, I felt so emo.

I sent a msg to myself..saying the on the 14 december 2009 (which is 2 days after the "shooting star" incident), I had so many exciting plans for the hols. But for this hols, I almst had nothing to get excited abt..only things to worry abt. Worry abt PP, A and P UT revision and preparation for reflection concert.

Lonely and weary, tired and despair....
I found my way out...working really hard...earn a bit of money to spend..
Just hoping that I'll be able to get ur attention some day if we ever saw each other by accident (or coincidence)...(A few guys had their attention on me...but I don't want it)
WHY am I doing this???..
I know for myself that you're not the one..and noe that perhaps is that guy I recently crushed on..

U...are still in my mind even till now.

I noe that even if u got my attention, even with things looks well...I know for myself that I won't accept u..But why am I still holding it even till now??

Whenever I get to school, I hope to see you. and when I happened to see you, I looked away instead. I freaked out!

Ur gf gave me that awful stare and I just ignored it..thinking that its okay. and shes childish by doing this.

I think that u were hiding away from me..cos every thing left now was only that masking tape on that button shoe...the webcam max that I stubbornly dun wanna delete it becos my sis suspect that it was the cause of the virus(pop ups) in my com, the pics in my phone, the msgs u sent me, and the msn..(you left the awesome W15H kids group)..

I felt so so afraid to see you...but yet I want to see you..
I felt so so very afraid to talk to you..but yet secretly I always open the msn dialogue..

I knew exactly what I need to give up (let go)
I knew..I just need a little more time..

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hahaha!! I'M SO HAPPY TODAY!! hahahha!

Dear READERS! :D

I'M SOOOO HAPPY TODAY!
Its been a long time since I chill out with my goodie friends!!!
Had jap steamboat buffet!! FELT SO PAMPERED! and even so, we shared a lot of jokes! random stuffs and laughing at stupid things in john little!

Saw this girl wearing a pink shorts, showing her ass off and we laughed our ass off!!!!
HHAHAHAHAHHAA!
OKAY! I know this is evil..but its really gross. The shorts was so short until u can see that peach shape of the butt! and its pink. So its really like a peach! LOL!

The card that I made for here!
Spent 4 hours on it! not kidding

Well! den when im back home, I was browsing through the bunch of letters I received from my friends. Den very happy to see two letter.

One was this...I was wondering who gave me this...

The other was from the guy that I like VERY VERY MUCH recently!
hahaha! He gave me the letter for Christmas himself personally! I still remembered that!
SOO HAPPY ABOUT THAT TOO! YAY! now finally got something to see before I sleep!


lolololol! BTW! my mum feels good about this guy that I like too! she even asked me to visit him to my house to encourage my bro to come back to church and she wanna noe him more TOO(to see how good he was!)

I LOVE TODAY! thank You Lord for all these blessings and provision!
LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH!


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the Guess WAD day /:

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How I wish I could eat a square watermelon!
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Today was a very happy day.
Now I know why I couldn't do work properly.
Cos my mind is so occupied with someone.
Mann, he caught me looking at him twice! AWKWARD!
I just feel that he's really getting more attractive each sunday.

Today...I burst out! I told my mum in front of my dad that my bro's friends (which is him...okay...lets name him. He's BCMJ [his full name initials] ..so that u guys know which him im talking abt) are getting more handsome! Trying to hint to my mum that im in a huge crush with someone. But she doesn't seem to get it.
Instead, she said, "Yar loh, his friends getting more handsome and I saw them in church. The older they grew up, the more handsome they are. Unlike your brother hor...the older he gets, the uglier it is."

Oh well! Anw guess wad..today's quite hectic! I force myself to listen to the morning ministry and I was freezing. Den I played for SS and got a few songs screwed up a bit. Not too much :D Overall its quite okay. I like to play great is thy faithfulness. Played it well and they all sang well!

Guess wad, I did the wrong assignment. Thank God, that aunty sweechoo didn't ask me to answer the questions. Den I went to piano lsn, half dead. It was so super tiring. Very trysting.

And wads worst was...my piano tchr test me on the things that I learnt AGES ago. and I had to play them. Thank God, it wasn't very screwed and my tchr can even say..GOOD!

going home and every step I took was getting heavier each time...GUESS WAD?
My left foot didn't lift up properly and I tripped over and almost fell! Thank God. I didn't had a fall. But my toe did feel a little painful.

Guess wad? The weather...was painfully hot. HOT HOT HOT! went home like a dead girl.
and slept with my mum. Den feel a bit not like it. Den went back to my bedroom to sleep. Feel uncomfortable in that position becos I never bathe and dun wanna dirty the clean part of the bed...i got up and went to my bro's room to sleep. Finally, I slept SOUNDLY!

den when I got up... GUESS WAD? im LATE FOR USHERING! chiong out of the house and the weather was painfully hot agn! Sweaty, I entered the train. Trying to cool down.

Guess wad...The bus took so long to come! So in the end, I was very late for church meeting. But its still a worthwhile trip..having to hear Tony Anthony spreading the Gospel in my church! I almost cried when I heard how he got converted..Wanna noe abt it? Ask me! hahaha!

Den its great to eat near BCMJ! den i just pretend to look at the crowd...and den our eyes met. I wanna smile nicely at him....or say a hi or something. But den...sigh. why m i thinking of woo-ing a guy. But how can he look so handsome?! DAMMM... STUPID STUPID! get off my head lah BCMJ! bye to u, BCMJ! sleep well and rmb to think of me when u sleep!

OK
I gtg off to sleep bye!


BYE READERS!

MOOooo00ooo... No mood?

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I've got no mood to study lah!
BIOCHEM makes my blood stirs and boils!
I just can't tahan biochem le lah.

DAM sian you noe. STUPID. Having to study it just for 1-5weeks already makes me wanna go crazy! ESPECIALLY the second problem. Got kerbs cycle and the oxidative phosphorylation.

Why do I start having no interest in anything I do?
I just feel like relaxing at one corner. Watch the very nice dramas, get to go shopping (buy new stuffs), have a good hair do. Sighs, I never want to be a taitai...Hais. I just haf this urge to shop! MANN...shopaholic, this addiction is getting on my nerves! CALM DOWN! alright! I need to do some exercise! But no time, how arh? Now already 11+pm.. tmr got church until 12pm. den still gota go piano lesson and revise for biochem. den at night got usher duty. dunno my friend can make it a not.

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PEK CHEK week!

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This whole week was quite sad.
First, I screwed up my chem II UT. for a moment, I thought that descending was from smallest to largest! and hence I ranked my elements in the opposite order!

Next was that Cheng was saying that he was worried that some seniors in replug might not be able to meet the mark because some were really good, and some were not there yet. Obviously, he was referring to me. And I just having dinner with them eh! Well, I admit that its a fact. But my mood was torn already. Danny was sharing some funny happenings in his army. That kind of makes me feel better and that he proposed that this up coming concert will be at esplanade water front. Hmm, I'm kinda excited. But still worried that I'd screw up. Pray that everything will be okay

The weird thing that repluggios did.

Next, when I get home, I saw my biochem daily grade. its a stupid B! HAIS. ALL because of my class laughing at how I pronouced specificity so pek chek-ly and hence I laughed during presentation. If only I don't laugh. Cos she commented me that Shi Ting, PLEASE DO NOT LAUGH DURING PRESENTATION.

I find myself feeling so tired physically and hardly could get any rest. I had a nightmare yesterday that Cheng died. I somehow I remembered that he asked me for a date in my dream. So scary! But I was the one crying the most at his funeral. Mann, what kind of dream is that?! Dreaming that my bandmate died because he overworked and died when he slept.

Well, the previous night I dreamt that the guy I have a crushed on, messaged a LONG LONG msg to me. He was so long winded and he kept telling me not to do this, and must remember to do that because I was under his group or something liddat. Then somehow, I remembered quite vividly that I swam very fast and everyone including him was kinda of impressed by the speed I swim using backward stroke! =) What a funny dream!

Yesterday I heard two songs by susan boyle. She was singing I cried a river over you and I dreamt a dream. I think shes a very inspirational singer. Well, it just takes a song for me to have some ideas of what ballad and soul song is like. So I tired it on the piano. Its pretty cool eh!

Well, just hope that tmr's microbio UT wun be screwed!

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Weeks past...

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Are you tired and weary...have you almost lost your way?

Well, I feeling physically tired and super sian.
Even going to church also didn't get to talk much.
Life is going so boringly and yet pressure is slowly building up.
Many things I just couldn't understand when I just think about the things that happened in the past..

I think about it as I walk past the same old place abt the same time when I was with you.
Why issit that I can sight the most amazing things with you but not with other people?
Why did He allow this to happen when we were not meant to be?
I just can't comprehend life happenings.
But one thing I know is that He (THE Lord) is always there, hearing every prayer, Faithful and True.
He walks by my side..all the day through.

When I think about the tragic of other's people life...
I felt quite burdened. It was so disturbing. But yet from there, I can see how blessed I am..and that I should stop questioning about why this thing happened and I realised I was in a deep trouble because only after he left, I realised that I have feelings for him. Gave up and moved on.
Thought life was gna be still great. But why the emptiness? and why am I trying so hard to look for someone perfect?

Lonely for this whole period of time..But hey, I should stop pitying myself and be more self less yea? So now I changed my hope. Last time, I was hoping to be content and stop comparing with others. Now I learnt contentment. This coming week's hope is to be self less. No self fish thoughts yea?

Hmm..anw, wad's wrong with being single?
Lotsa my classmates were actually kinda shocked that I have never went into relationship offically kind. Well, I don't think the guys I've came across have ever gave me the YOU-ARE-THE-ONE feeling except for the one I was thinking about these few days (which I think was a mistake,) and also that guy I got crushed on recently (which I think might be or not a mistake. WHO KNOWS? (: ).

Ah well, when I'm alone and not really doing things.. I really think about him and laughing to myself when I rmbed the funny and silly things he did. Can't find another guy as really cute and funny as he is. but well, good things passed. And now, we've not met up for quite some time, and I don't think its good to meet up with him. Cos just by saying a "HEYY, hello!" to him, its alrdy quite awkward esp when his gf is with him. I can't myself to talk to him more than just a greeting. Its just too out of my comfort zone.

ANW! FOR THE FIRST TIME...
I'M IN THE SAME BAND AS TABITHA (2nd runner up for singapore idol season 3) and Khim (campus superstar runner up)!!! THE GENRE WILL BE BALLAD AND SOUL! WHOOhoo!! If God willing for me to make it through the preparations, I WILL be performing at this yr's reflections! cool yea? can't wait!


And for the first time..I took a cab to church myself..using my own money because I think I am going to be late. If late den give bad impression to people and GG, cos I'm the pianist for the sisters' meeting (most of the mothers of my friends were the members of the sisters' meeting! =X)

And for the first time...I watched the Harlem Gospel Choir and felt awkward holding wayne's hand. Thankfully he wore a jacket and so his palm was covered with his jacket. If not, he could feel my SWEATY PALMS! (SHHH, don't tell him!) oh yea, must pray for him. cos he's not well for 1 week plus alrdy! POOR THING.

Okay, shall do my preparations for my UT! bye readers!

BYE!