My life mission statement

Mission Statement: Strive for excellence and make a difference while doing it with love because love endureth.

What is life when all we do is chasing after an illusive dream which would eventually fade away?

Therefore,

To God, I'll fear and obey.

To my beloved family and friends, I'll embrace them with love and care,

To the community, I'll make a difference and entrust them to the care of the Lord,

To my dear employer, I'll strive for excellence,

And finally to my one and only true love, I'll cherish you, love you more than I love myself (but of course you have to exist, cause right now, I ain't have any)

PS:  WHEN I DIE, I want my tombstone to install free WiFi, so that other people will visit me more often :))

If you ask me if I love him, I'd lie

I do believe that boys play games and a man doesn't.
I do believe he's still a boy, not a man yet. Neither I have grown to be a woman yet.
Not seasoned, and I definitely agree that he's doing the least to get the most attraction and attention.

I've been attracted so much to this kinda type of guys. Care less, don't bother and just faking smiles to get it through. I've been so hooked up by his minimal interest in me.. I just wonder if this has ever crossed his mind.

I could only say, I am still waiting.

perplexed - confused - bewildered

Hello readers

It doesn't seems to end after the DnD..
In fact two days after the DnD, we met up.
There, the forgetful dude forgot to bring the tickets.

Initially I thought he was kidding. BUT, IT WAS TRUE!
HE DIDN'T KID ME. I was secretly hoping that he was joking, but it really turns out to be true.
Another blessing in disguise I guess.. get to go catch a movie with him for the first time.
It was damm awkward to watch a movie that has intimacy scenes. The peeps in the movie theater were mostly couples and to go out with him as a friend, it's just weird. Not only watching movie..even dining out and walking around the shopping malls...are just a couple thing. It's pretty awkward. ANDDDD, I had such a headache to decide on a movie to watch..so many movies on sex and love. I just wanna watch action movie with him so it wouldn't get awkward. BUT, HE WATCHED SO MANY MOVIES ALREADY.

I really love both the DnD and the movie date. I mean, its the first time I felt that he treats me like a lady. He pulled the chair for me during DnD and did a great job as a partner. He was a funny and lil sweet dude that day. Although he merely commented that the fairy lady looks good, I just wanna disturb him. HAHA, he got sabotaged by me. Made him took a pic with the fairy lady that he thinks is pretty. :P He chats with me and laughs. Accompanied me and show me the way to the washroom. He did a great job :) The disappointing part was I didn't get to enchant him. I was really hoping that we could have a heart to heart talk during that evening..but I just let it passed. Sighs, I was all out for him that day..but I just couldn't take down my pride and put on courage to approach. I wasn't confident..he seems to treat me like a friend, with no exact interest shown.. So therefore I..I just didn't dare to confess. Anw, besides the food and games..the most exciting part was the lucky draw!!! Although I missed the lumix camera by one digit, I ended up getting the 14th place. I tot the prizes are the same for all 350 winners..BUT, it turns out that the 11th-16th winners got ipad mini! Woohoo, it's my first time that I've gotten such a good lucky prize ever :D He's my lucky star. I got lucky!

I felt really blessed these days.. Although the emotional part wasn't really well recovered, but everything in my life was made brighter when he's there with me. Not only I have off days to look forward to, I get to enjoy myself pretty much. Take a breather...relax, enjoy good scenery, good food and bioh-ing at hot girls!! haha! I really treasure and cherish those moments..I can't believe that tears are starting to well up in my eyes. After all the DOWNs, these are certainly the UPs. I really don't want these moments to pass me by.

Anw, I love the movie date was because, he was kind enough to carry my stuffs..AND...IT'S THE FIRST TIME I HEARD HIM APOLOGISED.
He said he was sorry for today. I should have punished him by making him to play badminton with me when I want to. HaHa. But I just replied that he's forgiven. How easy for him..

Finally after the movie date, we started to meet up agn for the flower dome!!! I was so excited! I imagined all the things we can do that day and....it turns out to be the predictable kind. :( I didn't manage to do a good job there I guess. ah well, we had a long walk to the flyer. Its agn...awkward..cause it turns out that there are sooo many couples and couples everywhere. ALL THE WAY FROM THE MRT STATION > DRAGONFLY BRIDGE > FLOWER DOME > OUTSIDE FLOWER DOME > DNA HELIX > FLYER. SOOOOO MANY COUPLES. Danggg.
Its too romantic alrdy. I don't likey cos he's not my bf bf bf!!!!

I suddenly got this idea in my head. cos I typed to fast and bf turns out to be fb. Fb was the "THING" for both of us..How we chat and met and sparks flew instantly. If I'd confess...I would say this, "Why I fb chat you because I want you to be the opposite of fb..which is bf." GOOD IDEA? hahaha

Anw, I jio-ed him out agn the next day for badminton. He SHOWED UP! He didn't go on MC DATE! I'm starting to believe the things that he said. I was thinking to myself why would he lie to me? I was quite taken aback when I saw SJ's profile pic. She definitely looks gorgeous and flirty. That flirtatious dress that allows her to showcase her asserts. Surely he'd drool.. He told me that he couldn't make it on wednesday..and that was the day she uploaded the picture. I tot surely he must have met her..and prolly took that pic of her.. It was only today that I realized he's not the one who took that pic of her and he prolly didn't meet her that day. Cos the photo credit was another guy which isn't his friend. I shouldn't have worried much..I should have just ask him about things I'm unsure of isn't it? Isn't that more straightforward? Well, I guess I wasn't sure of how I really felt about him. So many times, my heart says he's the right one. But there are times when I think about it, my heart says he's not the right one. I'm really confused.

WILL THERE BE A SIGN? What about this...If he's interested in me, thats the sign. If theres no signs of interest, let him go, but before letting him go, tell him how I felt about him and den let him go. cause I don't wanna have any more regrets.

Anw, the badminton date was fun. I guess I scare the shit out of him by being so rough and violent. I'm definitely a gangster to him today :/ OH WELLs.

Yearning

Yes, we all yearned for love and to be loved.

When I walked the streets of upper thomson road and chilled out at ice cream parlors, I can't help but to notice the couples that bypassed me. Such public display of affection does makes me yearn for love much more. I can't helped but to miss and imagine how great it would be if you were mine. If we can be together and do things which we both love to do, it'd add much colors and flavors in my life. The thought keeps me excited yet disappointed. It's a mixed feeling. Maybe I've been too greedy. Maybe my mind is just too occupied with you. I know I'm just a friend to you. You won't even be close to miss me. But I really, really want you to know that I really wish you were mine. I really want to be with you. Because I loved you from the very first day.

Yearning to have our own song and story.

Store your treasures in heaven

What has the world make us to become?

Money minded. Haters of Christ. Lovers of wealth and pursuers of charm and power.

We ought to keep this in mind. That money can't secure and grow treasures in heaven. When you die, nothing else will follow you except your soul. And so where does this soul goes to? Home for the soul?
It's Heaven. Heaven is a place where you'll meet your Creator. You'll be reconciled to the One who loves you and created you. But in order to get to this home, you'll have to believe that Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. No one (not baptism, not money, not good works etc) can go to the Father, except CHRIST. He is the ONLY way. To put it bluntly, He's the ticket to heaven. You just gotta believe that He's the only ticket and possess this ticket in order to enter the gates of Heaven.

So what are these treasures in heaven? In heaven, we'll receive treasures like crowns. There are many different crowns we can receive when we obey what our Creator has to say. There's crown of righteousness and etc. Storing these crowns and treasures and last for eternity. So lets be wise, lets store these treasures and stop deluding ourselves with all sort of earthly treasures that we can't keep it for long.

What matters most is your soul. Do not believe that it'll varnish away once you die. It wouldn't happen. That brings us back to suicide. Suicide will not solve any issues, it'd only create MORE PROBLEMS.

Let's take a step back and ponder about this issue. You'll discover you'll do things greater than being the greatest and most influential guy in the world.

-Meditate. Ponder. Think-

what makes a day counts?

What makes a day counts?

It's not about spending it with the most awesome people that I've ever hang out with, or doing things that you think it's cool. It's about getting out of your comfort zone and accomplish tasks that was all set up by the Almighty one. It could be as simple as lending a helping hand to the needy by buying 5 packs of tissue, taking a flyer from the distributor, giving up seats to the needy, helping your fellow neighbors to hold the lift, comfort and encourage your peers and etc. Because sometimes the little things can mend the biggest wound.

A day can count even when you're alone.

It's also about having the inner peace. To achieve that, you need to fulfill your own responsibilities. Be it as a child of God, of your parents or being an employee of your company. Not worrying about the things you can't change, but casting the worries to the Almighty, trusting that He's able.

Its also about committing to the day to the Almighty and thanking Him for the people, the job and the food that He has provided.

Many times in our life, we tend to rush, having selfish ambitions and thoughts that distorts our mind. As the way we behave characterizes our thoughts, people witness and judge who we are. If we keep on chasing after the illusive dreams, aren't we just a dreamer? A unsatisfied dreamer? So let's put off selfishness and adorn ourselves with the fruits of the Spirit - Kindness, gentleness, goodness etc. You'll be surprised that by doing so, you'll be satisfied and be contented - Achieving the inner peace and contentment.

It's so important to make a day count. It's so important not to waste a single day. It's just so important how each day means to us especially when you discover that there's some unfortunate people in our midst doesn't even have a day to spend.

Cherish, be strong, press on to the finishing line and make your life worth the living just because He lives.

back to where I am

The pleasures that I've found, didn't satisfy.
It leaves me just as wanting as before I sought.