Pure stupidity

Keep Smiling, Just keep on Smiling
Keep Laughing, Just keep on Laughing
Stay happy, Just keep on staying happy.
Can't I, oh why can't I...

Many things happened during weekends, mainly cause I had experienced a lot more pain and a lot more fun and also managed to find out a lot of things unknowingly.

The week has been just so special in such a way that I'm having a lot of mixed feelings.
The more time I get to meet up with him(also with the rest), the more things I noticed, the more things I heard, and the more disappointed I've got.

It's made worse by how my mum totally ignored me when I speak to her about the trip to cambodia.
I'm not going just because he's going. He's not even in the part of the reasons that I'm going. Its just a bonus that he's going.
I've been wanting to see the work at cambodia, get to know the missionaries there and hope that I can do something meaningful for them which is in this case, to paint walls. What's more in this trip, I'll be able to know a few jap people from other assemblies and have a good time of fellowship with them and get their contacts to follow up.

I really don't like the way I can't seek understanding from my family members with regards to this matter. I know that they doesn't like the way I handle things last year because that's my FIRST time in my life I'm handling so many many work and got so hectic.
I had exams to prepare and papers to sit for,
Piano to practice and lessons to attend,
Run for your life meetings and tasks to be done asap,
Laptop broke down so I had to go repair it,
Church meetings to attend,
Replug concert preparations.

I was just too busy and I know it's my fault that I didn't stay home and think about my parents and show more care and concern to them. As much as I wanted, I also would like to stay home and spend quality time with them. Do what I can to help them in the house chores and practice my piano as much as I could because my mum is very concern with that as the fees are really ex.

I know that it's my fault and I really do understand that most of the time, I think about myself more than I think of them. Can't they just give me more time and chance?

The FILL INs [____, ____, ____] of my heart

Miss him , Love him , Want him

HEY! RANDOMS THOUGHTS IN THE TOILET UH?

HEY READERS! [:

Just some random stuffs I wanna share while I'm in the toilet:

1. I was thinking about the dream that I had during one of the naps recently. I think I'm having huge craving for Vitagen and I was thristy while I'm having naps. So yea, I dreamt that I was holding the Vitagen that I just took out from the freezer. It felt hot. So I was wondering in my dream why was vitagen freshly taken out from the freezer can be warm..so I opened my eyes...and I realised that I was holding on to my bolster instead! :/

Den I was laughing to myself in the toilet. (oh, btw, I was doing the "business" in the toilet) :D

2. Den I started thinking about the song "haunted" by Taylor Swift. I was wondering, if ben heard me singing to him, " Come on Come on don't leave me like this, I thought I had you figured it out. Some thing gone terrible wrong. You all I wanted.", confirm he'll leave. Why? Cos I don't have a Taylor Swift voice..and it's awful! Well, if I have Taylor Swift voice and by singing that to him so that he won't leave, I seriously wish that I have her voice now!

okay, whatever. That's totally silly.

3. Oh, guess wad, I started to hearing "dropping-the-faeces" sound from the next cubicle.
It was like continuous lah! I was thinking to myself, hmm...she really had a lot of gold in her rectal. And start to laugh to myself. I mean..why am I feeling so happy today? Simply happy. Haven't felt like this for sooo long.

4. When I start to think about farting like a motobike, I laughed harder.

5. Finally, I've cleared all the faeces from my rectal!

And just now on my way to school, my phone scared the people in the train.
Cos the earpiece came off and the music started blasting. It happened TWICE.

Oh, and Jason MISS MY BURP! I'm quite thankful cos people in my class doesn't complain about my burp. They just comment about it. Like..OH MY GOSH! MY GOODNESS! THIS IS REALLY LOUD! HAHAHA! and more! Some of them miss my burp!! I'm so happy that burping can make some of them laugh! oh btw, Wanni's burp sounds like a man who burps. Its loud and low! super funny!


Oh, i hope that the pharmaceutics UT will be manageable and that I can finish all the questions!
I felt really depressed about the dietary supplement UT cos I didn't manage to finish the calculations and advices! I know how to do!! I really know.. I just need more time. ARGHS..!..
Oh well, I shouldn't keep thinking about sad and depressing stuff and remind myself how much time I left before he leave.. :(

BYE READERS! [:

Better news?

Hey readers!

I've such a fruitful trip to Myanmar on 19th to 29th december 2010!
It marks the mircales that the Lord has done for me.
Seriously, from this trip, I realised that prayer really works wonders!
I thought I have a high chance of not surviving back to Singapore. This is serious. Because I fell sick there and my body was not able to adapt to the extreme cold temperature there. It was so cold till when you pee in the morning, there's water vapour rising out from your pee!

I did conquered a lot of things! Like surviving through the 12 hours of coach ride. Seriously, the road was bumpy and I've found it so hard to sleep. Also, I have to hold my pee for soo soo long! It was only after I went to the "toilet" in one of the "wulu" places, den I've found myself really in a mission trip! The toilet was so dark and it's a long way to walk deep inside. Its so scary esp in the night. If you're going alone to that toilet, you might have second thoughts even though the pee will come out anytime!

I love the time I had spent with the BMET members:
Amariah, Jonathan, Samuel, Sheena, Esmond, Edna, Melissa (my dorm mate), Anabeth, Raeann, Linus and Sharlyn. Its super funny esp at the Eastern Hotel where they're preparing the puppet show. While translating the words from Eng to Chinese, I realised that my church peeps chinese reallie is "wah-best-seh" standard. Direct translation! SUPER funny! Sometimes the head of the puppet will drop out and its like we'll hold our tummy and laughed so hard like no one else's business. The voice of the puppets were really funny at certain point of the time too! haha!
Shopping and walking and eating. Hmm..really nice to see the full moon there. It was so BIG BIG BIG AND ROUND ROUND ROUND AND BRIGHT BRIGHT BRIGHT! Love it a lot. Though I didn't manage to see shooting stars there, but I have the Brightest Star in my heart! Thats none other than my Lord and GOD! :)

After 8 whole days, I thought I couldn't make it anymore. I really want to go home and rest. I really miss home and sleep so so much. I was thoroughly worn out. But I don't know what give me the energy to want to continue to play the stupid BANG game and ton the last night. I merely had 2hrs and 30minutes of sleep. Super tired the next day. Btw, the BANG games was really stupid. I was about to win the whole game. And samuel took over mel's card when I left for a pee. Den after I came out of the toilet, I realised I just died. All 4/5 lifes that I had just ended. Very pro samuel. Very pro...

Oh btw, Jonathan and Esmond were really helpful. I thought my correction tape is beyond repair esp when Jonathan almost tored the tape while trying to get it fix. But there, the Pro correction tape and shoe marker aka Esmond FIX THAT BEYOND REPAIRED CORRECTION TAPE! They really don't give up even when I keep saying just throw it away, its gone for good.

The Christmas spents at the bontanical garden was soo good! I was so happy that Jonathan and Samuel is in my fan club! HAHA! Samuel said something nice about me and I said that if I've got a fanpage, I'd put that under write something about the fanclub. He said about my laugh. How I could laugh at almost everything and being happy always.

Anw, the motor ride to the Nargist victim's farm was really adventureous! It's super bumpy that I almost fell off from the motorbike. Really thrilling and I really prayed hard and enjoyed it hard too!

Next, painting in the cold wasn't that nice. It's like my arms became really tired. But well, I was so happy that I could do something for the school there. I did panicked about getting a cut from the rusty grills. But I think its fine now. No infection I guess. :)

Oh!! I really admired the way how Pam Linstead (the missionary) actually can get over her previous boyfriend and start a new life, being busy with mission work. From her love story, I realised that the Lord is a perfect match maker! He knows which guy is the best for her and that they can be so deeply in love with each other. I really hope that the Lord will bless me with a good spouse too :) Some guy that took so much effort to do something just for a girl he loves.

I wouldn't mind about having someone that will not be romantic and very straightforward in terms of proposal as long as I think and God knows that he's the best person for me.

Well, today I just said something really weird.
I said to wanni that if I look for eye candy, I might have already been attached.
But he is different. He fulfil his responsibilities and he would make it good. He had a heart to listen to God and the way he thinks about certain things are different. He knows how to look on the bright side. He had this smile that could light up my whole heart whenever I see him smile (even when he's not smiling to me). There's no second thought about liking another guy. I just couldn't find someone that I really admired so much and I felt that he's the best that I could ever find. He's the man of my dreams.

Yes, its dreams. So I know I shouldn't be chasing after dreams. It's vanity and not worthwhile. I did stop chasing after the dreams but I have already put him in some corner in my heart so that no one can replace his place in my heart. No one could.

The GREATEST thing is that I know at least, I have about 8 more months left before he leave.

Anw, I'm getting abit out of shape nowadays.
1. COUGH COUGH COUGH
Seriously, I don't like medicine. It makes me feel so drowsy and I can hardly say what I wanted to say correctly.
2. Run for your life this friday! Really pray that God will see it through all things.
3. Next monday got paper and I don't even know which module is that.
how great is that.
4. Panick! Tmr piano lesson. ARGH.

Hope and Pray.
That's all I know of now.

Bye readers! [: