slowing down, look around

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Its me again!!!! Don't feel really energetic nowadays...
Feeling weary and perhaps lonely. There isn't anything that I can really enjoy...
I just keep on rejecting or rather refuse to go to work. I'm kinda sad cos I really got no money to spend on the things I like. Cos I'm like trying to save up just in case I feel like rebonding my hair again.

While I was walking to YCK mrt station... I just start to walk a little slower...I felt that ever since I get into poly.. I feel that I'm like getting younger. Not the looks lah (Oh actually can lah.. the looks, cos less pimples and less white hair. Den hair nicer oso.. so dun look like auntie anymore :X) Its actually the way I do things. I used to rush here and there....till im out of breath. But nowadays, I felt that I'm more slack..though sometimes a bit tense in class. But well, its not as stressful as Os. and definitely more freedom! YES! THATS THE WORD!! FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!
FREEDOM to do things! to play games! to have fun!!! :D More time to look around....at pretty stuffs/scenery...at handsome/cute guys. MORE TIME FOR DRAMA!!!!! and msn!


But it seems like I'm still not having more time for God. still wasting my time and not discipline enuff to sit down and meditate on His word. *sighs*


KAY, gotta catch my korean drama now.
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Crazy about him, but why do I feel so down suddenly?

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Arhh...so in loveeeeeee...arhhh~~~
dreamy feelings... *mmmmmmm*

How can he be so perfect?????

I miss you loadds :( Although we were just a distance apart, and noticed that u look up the stairs, but still, I just didn't talk to u, or even greet u :(

*SIGHS*

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About Life, About Me .

What's me?

I'm like the "kai xin guo". This "Kai Xin Guo" are those nuts that people likes to eat during chinese new year.

Why am I like nuts? Am I nuts?!?

Actually, why I described myself as Kai Xin Guo is because...

Sometimes you only need to put in a little effort to open that slighlty cracked Kai Xin Guo in order to enjoy that little nut. Just like me...You just have to simply tap on my shoulder or wink at me etc., do something that require little effort, you'll make me laugh! I am serious! :D

And sometimes, an awful cheeky stare at me, which Iqmal always did will make me laugh too!
But guess what, I think that Kai Xin Guo would taste awfully sweet too! hahaha!

But when life's get hard, just like one of the Kai Xin Guo's shell...so hard...so hard to crack... so hard to get the nut of the shell..
I might need more care, more concern, more msgs, more dates, and more one-to-one talk etc. to get my "shell" more brittle in order of you to make me smile/laugh (:

I found that life is simple. Its sometimes complex because it involves in emotions, which is very subjective.
It is sometimes tough, because of challenges and difficulties. But I believe that after very storm, there'll be rainbow. And its where I'll be you at the rainbow's end...where'll never get separated.

Love you, those people who made me laugh

All refresh!

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Emo time is over! who says holidays can't be exciting without some one whom you like cares and concern for you?!

Tmr going back school to prepare for artsplatter. Will be doing day and night by kid cudi:)
Hmm, got some ideas for it already! HAHHAA! can't wait to try out tmr!!!!

I better go sleep now, cos at any moment of time, my mum will check on me to see whether im asleep already a not!!!

BTW, I DON'T LIKE my crushed BCMJ's new hair cut!!! SOOOOOOOOOOOO UGLLYYYYYYY!!!! ARGHS! why do he have to cut his pretty and nice, beautiful (sexy !!) hair?
I love his previous hair style...so natural...with the fringe in front... AWWWWSS
so in love with it! hahhaa!


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all again

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REPLUG CAMP WAS AWESOME FUN! and funny :D

I was really worn out by the end of replug camp.
One of my juniors asked if I gt boyfriend a not, if dun haf he wanna be my boyfriend!
LOL! I was like hahaha, I really got no boyfriend and I don't have boyfriend before. den he didn't like ask anymore. Well, its so causal :D

Den Iqmal asked about who i wanna date with in replug honestly..
I lied yo...I've got no intention to date dilly (the one that I said) and wayne (the one everyone want me to go steady with)..I wanted to have a date out with fifi/cheng/danny they all.. :D

But well...a date is a date. Not like ok?

UPDATES:
1. I was the only who played soccer with repluggios
2. I scored 3 goals for soccer!
3. They asked if I was a guy in disguise..and ask me to shave my hair LOL
4. When cheng asked why mary like john. I said because john dick is harry.
(answer was inspired by the famous maths question...always got tom, dick and harry had 9 marbles...)
5. Warren piggyback me and suddenly freak me out by carrying me when taking pics.
6. I danced crazily during the last night of replug camp's party.
7. I gave ideas for two keyboardists and that drained out all my brain juices.

But when all these things past and no more replug camp..it was time to work.
I really went back to banquet today to work. On the way home, I felt so emo.

I sent a msg to myself..saying the on the 14 december 2009 (which is 2 days after the "shooting star" incident), I had so many exciting plans for the hols. But for this hols, I almst had nothing to get excited abt..only things to worry abt. Worry abt PP, A and P UT revision and preparation for reflection concert.

Lonely and weary, tired and despair....
I found my way out...working really hard...earn a bit of money to spend..
Just hoping that I'll be able to get ur attention some day if we ever saw each other by accident (or coincidence)...(A few guys had their attention on me...but I don't want it)
WHY am I doing this???..
I know for myself that you're not the one..and noe that perhaps is that guy I recently crushed on..

U...are still in my mind even till now.

I noe that even if u got my attention, even with things looks well...I know for myself that I won't accept u..But why am I still holding it even till now??

Whenever I get to school, I hope to see you. and when I happened to see you, I looked away instead. I freaked out!

Ur gf gave me that awful stare and I just ignored it..thinking that its okay. and shes childish by doing this.

I think that u were hiding away from me..cos every thing left now was only that masking tape on that button shoe...the webcam max that I stubbornly dun wanna delete it becos my sis suspect that it was the cause of the virus(pop ups) in my com, the pics in my phone, the msgs u sent me, and the msn..(you left the awesome W15H kids group)..

I felt so so afraid to see you...but yet I want to see you..
I felt so so very afraid to talk to you..but yet secretly I always open the msn dialogue..

I knew exactly what I need to give up (let go)
I knew..I just need a little more time..

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hahaha!! I'M SO HAPPY TODAY!! hahahha!

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I'M SOOOO HAPPY TODAY!
Its been a long time since I chill out with my goodie friends!!!
Had jap steamboat buffet!! FELT SO PAMPERED! and even so, we shared a lot of jokes! random stuffs and laughing at stupid things in john little!

Saw this girl wearing a pink shorts, showing her ass off and we laughed our ass off!!!!
HHAHAHAHAHHAA!
OKAY! I know this is evil..but its really gross. The shorts was so short until u can see that peach shape of the butt! and its pink. So its really like a peach! LOL!

The card that I made for here!
Spent 4 hours on it! not kidding

Well! den when im back home, I was browsing through the bunch of letters I received from my friends. Den very happy to see two letter.

One was this...I was wondering who gave me this...

The other was from the guy that I like VERY VERY MUCH recently!
hahaha! He gave me the letter for Christmas himself personally! I still remembered that!
SOO HAPPY ABOUT THAT TOO! YAY! now finally got something to see before I sleep!


lolololol! BTW! my mum feels good about this guy that I like too! she even asked me to visit him to my house to encourage my bro to come back to church and she wanna noe him more TOO(to see how good he was!)

I LOVE TODAY! thank You Lord for all these blessings and provision!
LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH!


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the Guess WAD day /:

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How I wish I could eat a square watermelon!
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Today was a very happy day.
Now I know why I couldn't do work properly.
Cos my mind is so occupied with someone.
Mann, he caught me looking at him twice! AWKWARD!
I just feel that he's really getting more attractive each sunday.

Today...I burst out! I told my mum in front of my dad that my bro's friends (which is him...okay...lets name him. He's BCMJ [his full name initials] ..so that u guys know which him im talking abt) are getting more handsome! Trying to hint to my mum that im in a huge crush with someone. But she doesn't seem to get it.
Instead, she said, "Yar loh, his friends getting more handsome and I saw them in church. The older they grew up, the more handsome they are. Unlike your brother hor...the older he gets, the uglier it is."

Oh well! Anw guess wad..today's quite hectic! I force myself to listen to the morning ministry and I was freezing. Den I played for SS and got a few songs screwed up a bit. Not too much :D Overall its quite okay. I like to play great is thy faithfulness. Played it well and they all sang well!

Guess wad, I did the wrong assignment. Thank God, that aunty sweechoo didn't ask me to answer the questions. Den I went to piano lsn, half dead. It was so super tiring. Very trysting.

And wads worst was...my piano tchr test me on the things that I learnt AGES ago. and I had to play them. Thank God, it wasn't very screwed and my tchr can even say..GOOD!

going home and every step I took was getting heavier each time...GUESS WAD?
My left foot didn't lift up properly and I tripped over and almost fell! Thank God. I didn't had a fall. But my toe did feel a little painful.

Guess wad? The weather...was painfully hot. HOT HOT HOT! went home like a dead girl.
and slept with my mum. Den feel a bit not like it. Den went back to my bedroom to sleep. Feel uncomfortable in that position becos I never bathe and dun wanna dirty the clean part of the bed...i got up and went to my bro's room to sleep. Finally, I slept SOUNDLY!

den when I got up... GUESS WAD? im LATE FOR USHERING! chiong out of the house and the weather was painfully hot agn! Sweaty, I entered the train. Trying to cool down.

Guess wad...The bus took so long to come! So in the end, I was very late for church meeting. But its still a worthwhile trip..having to hear Tony Anthony spreading the Gospel in my church! I almost cried when I heard how he got converted..Wanna noe abt it? Ask me! hahaha!

Den its great to eat near BCMJ! den i just pretend to look at the crowd...and den our eyes met. I wanna smile nicely at him....or say a hi or something. But den...sigh. why m i thinking of woo-ing a guy. But how can he look so handsome?! DAMMM... STUPID STUPID! get off my head lah BCMJ! bye to u, BCMJ! sleep well and rmb to think of me when u sleep!

OK
I gtg off to sleep bye!


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