I'm getting tired

I'm getting tired. It's not going anywhere. I somehow knows that he's not the one. But why do I feel so empty? Im really hoping to see that somehow it'll turns out right. But it's all my wishful thinking. I don't know if hes speaking the truth. I'm so worried abt him, abt his back pain. But why do I feel as though he's trying to give excuses? Prolly this isn't the first time. I'm tired of asking him out. I really do. Perhaps after the DnD, I'll just go cold turkey on him and nvr meet him agn.