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I just I just I just....
I JUST!....just.....JUST.....
HAD A mini (actually is a HUGE)....
CRUSHED on someone I knew for so LONG!
NO WAY! no way! WHY?!?!?!?!?
I never like one sided..
Its going to drive me crazy...
How can he be SOOOOO PERFECT?
Everything about him was so perfect..
He's quite cute..
not only that..
He was a baptized believer in the same church as me. and I just realised that both of us were present at each other baptism service.
He's teaching/facilitating this group of sec 1 boys in Youth meeting.
He was in NPCC in ACJC i think. (I always like to have somebody like a policeman liddat (: )
The fact that he's in ACJC, and that he was in integrated program tells me that he's quite intellectual.
He can go and take bus the same way as me after church too (: HAHAHA!
He plays a bit of guitar..
He loves sports too (CAPTAIN'S BALL!)
Quite lame. -.-" but at the same time quite logical and funny :D
He let people take pics of him :D
and he has a darlie smile :D:D:D:D
He was in the same camp group as me..and that time, I was his assistant group leader(:
(He sang that song and borrowed markers from me. and I can still rmb those time)
I think about those times I get quite close to him.
Its quite sweet actually. and I realized that...actually unconsciously, I do have a little feeling for him ever since 2-4 years back. But I realised that just yesterday...(1may), when I saw him, I just kept looking at him secretly from the side. And when I don't see him, I felt paranoid. Kept looking around to see him, pretending that I'm finding somebody.
Mann, its horrible! its terrible!!
When he's near me, I start to feel a bit nervy..
and so when I'm talking to a friend, I started to laugh nervously...
(I didn't dare to look at him)
So when I'm in a distance from him, I just look around and saw him.
AND OH NO! he was facing the same direction and I look straight into his eyes. and quickly avoided. Why is this happening...
WHAT DID I DONE WRONG?
I never like one-sided love. Its kind of a bad thing.
SIGHS!!!!! And you know wad?!
I was hyper happy about today just becos I get to say Hi to him and he said Hi too and smiled to me?! (and he gave a quick look on the books that I'm holding).
AND I'm way too sick..
You know wad I did?
when I'm home...I kept replaying that scene when we said Hi to each other in front of the mirror and found out that I gave an awful smile. (and told myself that I should smile like this and not like that when the next time I say hi to him)
NONONONO...i'm just too sick. TOOO SICK.
I just..fell in love. I think so. a bit scared of feeling rejected and feeling jealous or disappointed.
I just wanna be myself when he's there.
I just don't want to fall too deep in love in him..
I just hope that he won't occupy too much space in my heart till God have to squeeze in order to stay in my heart.
Pray that I will not think too much abt him!! WALK FAITHFULLY WITH GOD!!
YES SHI TING!! JIA YOU!
BYE READERS! [:
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