hahaha!! I'M SO HAPPY TODAY!! hahahha!

Dear READERS! :D

I'M SOOOO HAPPY TODAY!
Its been a long time since I chill out with my goodie friends!!!
Had jap steamboat buffet!! FELT SO PAMPERED! and even so, we shared a lot of jokes! random stuffs and laughing at stupid things in john little!

Saw this girl wearing a pink shorts, showing her ass off and we laughed our ass off!!!!
HHAHAHAHAHHAA!
OKAY! I know this is evil..but its really gross. The shorts was so short until u can see that peach shape of the butt! and its pink. So its really like a peach! LOL!

The card that I made for here!
Spent 4 hours on it! not kidding

Well! den when im back home, I was browsing through the bunch of letters I received from my friends. Den very happy to see two letter.

One was this...I was wondering who gave me this...

The other was from the guy that I like VERY VERY MUCH recently!
hahaha! He gave me the letter for Christmas himself personally! I still remembered that!
SOO HAPPY ABOUT THAT TOO! YAY! now finally got something to see before I sleep!


lolololol! BTW! my mum feels good about this guy that I like too! she even asked me to visit him to my house to encourage my bro to come back to church and she wanna noe him more TOO(to see how good he was!)

I LOVE TODAY! thank You Lord for all these blessings and provision!
LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH!


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the Guess WAD day /:

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How I wish I could eat a square watermelon!
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Today was a very happy day.
Now I know why I couldn't do work properly.
Cos my mind is so occupied with someone.
Mann, he caught me looking at him twice! AWKWARD!
I just feel that he's really getting more attractive each sunday.

Today...I burst out! I told my mum in front of my dad that my bro's friends (which is him...okay...lets name him. He's BCMJ [his full name initials] ..so that u guys know which him im talking abt) are getting more handsome! Trying to hint to my mum that im in a huge crush with someone. But she doesn't seem to get it.
Instead, she said, "Yar loh, his friends getting more handsome and I saw them in church. The older they grew up, the more handsome they are. Unlike your brother hor...the older he gets, the uglier it is."

Oh well! Anw guess wad..today's quite hectic! I force myself to listen to the morning ministry and I was freezing. Den I played for SS and got a few songs screwed up a bit. Not too much :D Overall its quite okay. I like to play great is thy faithfulness. Played it well and they all sang well!

Guess wad, I did the wrong assignment. Thank God, that aunty sweechoo didn't ask me to answer the questions. Den I went to piano lsn, half dead. It was so super tiring. Very trysting.

And wads worst was...my piano tchr test me on the things that I learnt AGES ago. and I had to play them. Thank God, it wasn't very screwed and my tchr can even say..GOOD!

going home and every step I took was getting heavier each time...GUESS WAD?
My left foot didn't lift up properly and I tripped over and almost fell! Thank God. I didn't had a fall. But my toe did feel a little painful.

Guess wad? The weather...was painfully hot. HOT HOT HOT! went home like a dead girl.
and slept with my mum. Den feel a bit not like it. Den went back to my bedroom to sleep. Feel uncomfortable in that position becos I never bathe and dun wanna dirty the clean part of the bed...i got up and went to my bro's room to sleep. Finally, I slept SOUNDLY!

den when I got up... GUESS WAD? im LATE FOR USHERING! chiong out of the house and the weather was painfully hot agn! Sweaty, I entered the train. Trying to cool down.

Guess wad...The bus took so long to come! So in the end, I was very late for church meeting. But its still a worthwhile trip..having to hear Tony Anthony spreading the Gospel in my church! I almost cried when I heard how he got converted..Wanna noe abt it? Ask me! hahaha!

Den its great to eat near BCMJ! den i just pretend to look at the crowd...and den our eyes met. I wanna smile nicely at him....or say a hi or something. But den...sigh. why m i thinking of woo-ing a guy. But how can he look so handsome?! DAMMM... STUPID STUPID! get off my head lah BCMJ! bye to u, BCMJ! sleep well and rmb to think of me when u sleep!

OK
I gtg off to sleep bye!


BYE READERS!

MOOooo00ooo... No mood?

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I've got no mood to study lah!
BIOCHEM makes my blood stirs and boils!
I just can't tahan biochem le lah.

DAM sian you noe. STUPID. Having to study it just for 1-5weeks already makes me wanna go crazy! ESPECIALLY the second problem. Got kerbs cycle and the oxidative phosphorylation.

Why do I start having no interest in anything I do?
I just feel like relaxing at one corner. Watch the very nice dramas, get to go shopping (buy new stuffs), have a good hair do. Sighs, I never want to be a taitai...Hais. I just haf this urge to shop! MANN...shopaholic, this addiction is getting on my nerves! CALM DOWN! alright! I need to do some exercise! But no time, how arh? Now already 11+pm.. tmr got church until 12pm. den still gota go piano lesson and revise for biochem. den at night got usher duty. dunno my friend can make it a not.

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PEK CHEK week!

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This whole week was quite sad.
First, I screwed up my chem II UT. for a moment, I thought that descending was from smallest to largest! and hence I ranked my elements in the opposite order!

Next was that Cheng was saying that he was worried that some seniors in replug might not be able to meet the mark because some were really good, and some were not there yet. Obviously, he was referring to me. And I just having dinner with them eh! Well, I admit that its a fact. But my mood was torn already. Danny was sharing some funny happenings in his army. That kind of makes me feel better and that he proposed that this up coming concert will be at esplanade water front. Hmm, I'm kinda excited. But still worried that I'd screw up. Pray that everything will be okay

The weird thing that repluggios did.

Next, when I get home, I saw my biochem daily grade. its a stupid B! HAIS. ALL because of my class laughing at how I pronouced specificity so pek chek-ly and hence I laughed during presentation. If only I don't laugh. Cos she commented me that Shi Ting, PLEASE DO NOT LAUGH DURING PRESENTATION.

I find myself feeling so tired physically and hardly could get any rest. I had a nightmare yesterday that Cheng died. I somehow I remembered that he asked me for a date in my dream. So scary! But I was the one crying the most at his funeral. Mann, what kind of dream is that?! Dreaming that my bandmate died because he overworked and died when he slept.

Well, the previous night I dreamt that the guy I have a crushed on, messaged a LONG LONG msg to me. He was so long winded and he kept telling me not to do this, and must remember to do that because I was under his group or something liddat. Then somehow, I remembered quite vividly that I swam very fast and everyone including him was kinda of impressed by the speed I swim using backward stroke! =) What a funny dream!

Yesterday I heard two songs by susan boyle. She was singing I cried a river over you and I dreamt a dream. I think shes a very inspirational singer. Well, it just takes a song for me to have some ideas of what ballad and soul song is like. So I tired it on the piano. Its pretty cool eh!

Well, just hope that tmr's microbio UT wun be screwed!

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Weeks past...

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Are you tired and weary...have you almost lost your way?

Well, I feeling physically tired and super sian.
Even going to church also didn't get to talk much.
Life is going so boringly and yet pressure is slowly building up.
Many things I just couldn't understand when I just think about the things that happened in the past..

I think about it as I walk past the same old place abt the same time when I was with you.
Why issit that I can sight the most amazing things with you but not with other people?
Why did He allow this to happen when we were not meant to be?
I just can't comprehend life happenings.
But one thing I know is that He (THE Lord) is always there, hearing every prayer, Faithful and True.
He walks by my side..all the day through.

When I think about the tragic of other's people life...
I felt quite burdened. It was so disturbing. But yet from there, I can see how blessed I am..and that I should stop questioning about why this thing happened and I realised I was in a deep trouble because only after he left, I realised that I have feelings for him. Gave up and moved on.
Thought life was gna be still great. But why the emptiness? and why am I trying so hard to look for someone perfect?

Lonely for this whole period of time..But hey, I should stop pitying myself and be more self less yea? So now I changed my hope. Last time, I was hoping to be content and stop comparing with others. Now I learnt contentment. This coming week's hope is to be self less. No self fish thoughts yea?

Hmm..anw, wad's wrong with being single?
Lotsa my classmates were actually kinda shocked that I have never went into relationship offically kind. Well, I don't think the guys I've came across have ever gave me the YOU-ARE-THE-ONE feeling except for the one I was thinking about these few days (which I think was a mistake,) and also that guy I got crushed on recently (which I think might be or not a mistake. WHO KNOWS? (: ).

Ah well, when I'm alone and not really doing things.. I really think about him and laughing to myself when I rmbed the funny and silly things he did. Can't find another guy as really cute and funny as he is. but well, good things passed. And now, we've not met up for quite some time, and I don't think its good to meet up with him. Cos just by saying a "HEYY, hello!" to him, its alrdy quite awkward esp when his gf is with him. I can't myself to talk to him more than just a greeting. Its just too out of my comfort zone.

ANW! FOR THE FIRST TIME...
I'M IN THE SAME BAND AS TABITHA (2nd runner up for singapore idol season 3) and Khim (campus superstar runner up)!!! THE GENRE WILL BE BALLAD AND SOUL! WHOOhoo!! If God willing for me to make it through the preparations, I WILL be performing at this yr's reflections! cool yea? can't wait!


And for the first time..I took a cab to church myself..using my own money because I think I am going to be late. If late den give bad impression to people and GG, cos I'm the pianist for the sisters' meeting (most of the mothers of my friends were the members of the sisters' meeting! =X)

And for the first time...I watched the Harlem Gospel Choir and felt awkward holding wayne's hand. Thankfully he wore a jacket and so his palm was covered with his jacket. If not, he could feel my SWEATY PALMS! (SHHH, don't tell him!) oh yea, must pray for him. cos he's not well for 1 week plus alrdy! POOR THING.

Okay, shall do my preparations for my UT! bye readers!

BYE!

OH! the PERFECT fit?

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I just I just I just.....
I just I just I just....
I just I just I just....
I just I just I just....
I just I just I just....
I just I just I just....

I JUST!....just.....JUST.....
HAD A mini (actually is a HUGE)....





CRUSHED on someone I knew for so LONG!
NO WAY! no way! WHY?!?!?!?!?
I never like one sided..
Its going to drive me crazy...


How can he be SOOOOO PERFECT?
Everything about him was so perfect..
He's quite cute..
not only that..
He was a baptized believer in the same church as me. and I just realised that both of us were present at each other baptism service.
He's teaching/facilitating this group of sec 1 boys in Youth meeting.
He was in NPCC in ACJC i think. (I always like to have somebody like a policeman liddat (: )
The fact that he's in ACJC, and that he was in integrated program tells me that he's quite intellectual.
He can go and take bus the same way as me after church too (: HAHAHA!
He plays a bit of guitar..
He loves sports too (CAPTAIN'S BALL!)
Quite lame. -.-" but at the same time quite logical and funny :D
He let people take pics of him :D
and he has a darlie smile :D:D:D:D
He was in the same camp group as me..and that time, I was his assistant group leader(:
(He sang that song and borrowed markers from me. and I can still rmb those time)

I think about those times I get quite close to him.
Its quite sweet actually. and I realized that...actually unconsciously, I do have a little feeling for him ever since 2-4 years back. But I realised that just yesterday...(1may), when I saw him, I just kept looking at him secretly from the side. And when I don't see him, I felt paranoid. Kept looking around to see him, pretending that I'm finding somebody.
Mann, its horrible! its terrible!!
When he's near me, I start to feel a bit nervy..
and so when I'm talking to a friend, I started to laugh nervously...
(I didn't dare to look at him)

So when I'm in a distance from him, I just look around and saw him.
AND OH NO! he was facing the same direction and I look straight into his eyes. and quickly avoided. Why is this happening...

WHAT DID I DONE WRONG?
I never like one-sided love. Its kind of a bad thing.

SIGHS!!!!! And you know wad?!
I was hyper happy about today just becos I get to say Hi to him and he said Hi too and smiled to me?! (and he gave a quick look on the books that I'm holding).

AND I'm way too sick..
You know wad I did?
when I'm home...I kept replaying that scene when we said Hi to each other in front of the mirror and found out that I gave an awful smile. (and told myself that I should smile like this and not like that when the next time I say hi to him)

NONONONO...i'm just too sick. TOOO SICK.
I just..fell in love. I think so. a bit scared of feeling rejected and feeling jealous or disappointed.
I just wanna be myself when he's there.
I just don't want to fall too deep in love in him..
I just hope that he won't occupy too much space in my heart till God have to squeeze in order to stay in my heart.
Pray that I will not think too much abt him!! WALK FAITHFULLY WITH GOD!!
YES SHI TING!! JIA YOU!

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