bad sweet dreams

Hi readers!

Have you ever wondered that somehow actually the most amazing and awesome dream can be as bad as a nightmare?

Well...honestly, for me I do think that awesome sweet dreams can make me emotional down. Esp it is that kind of dream that u actually dreamt of someone whom you really like a lot likes you back. And that together, u and him did a lot and gone through a lot of tough events. It brought me back to the feeling that I was in love. The feeling is just so real that I myself could have that feeling of excitement when I dreamt of that dream. In the dream, everything just went so well..and I could feel that warmth and it comforted my soul in a way. However when the alaram starts to ring loudly and disturbed that whole dream...forcing me to wake up and leave that dream, I really hated it. Why couldn't my life be so full of surprises? Why do I have to face the reality and the truth that I can't have it...

And so, when I went off to work or to school for lessons, I felt really emotional. Really really hated it. Esp that particular dream... In that dream, I rmbed that he plucked the lemon flower from the ground and put it in my hand. I rmbed it was so lovely. But out of shock, some stupid woman appeared and commanded me to go back to work. So I had no choice but to put it in the pocket of my blouse. Dreams are dreams. Its so odd that the blouse I dreamt of was the blouse that I wanted to wear to work. When I woke up, I delibrately check if there was a lemon flower in it. But there was none. None at all. Nothing...

I've watched a lot of movies that something special occured to this particular girl, but in my life, there isn't at all. No fairytales, no magic. The lemon flower is not in the pocket...

So readers, sweet dreams can be worse than nightmares. Although it doesn't frightens you, but it makes u really want something that can never happen to happen in your life. Its so beautiful it makes you want to cry. It makes you really want something that you can never get.

I wish, that the pain of missing someone so much would soon be gone. I wish, the dream will never makes me get reminded of that feeling of being so in love with someone I can't be with and can never be with. I wish, that if dreams cannot come true, then it shouldn't be something that I would dream of at night.