I guess

I guess I would feel better after blogging.

So many things happened. The only day which I felt the happiest is SATURDAY.
I seriously love that day mann.
Lunch with mag and san was super funny. I told them jokes and yin san also said some. It really made me laugh loadds even though I'm the one who's telling jokes. HAHA! :D

It happened that I have to play for Children's corner during singpiration on that day too. And I kind of enjoyed watching the kids doing actions and singing praises to God.

I love the bible study session with my dear sisters in Christ. So many came!! Most of them just finished "O"s! Great!! finally they can relax more.

I love the refreshments provided by Uncle Muti. This time round, THERES MY FAVVVVV!!!
SEAWEEEEEDDS!! WOOOHOOO! (sea veggies~)

After that I told jokes to rina and she laughed until very funny and cute!! I was hurrying to one corner to hide myself and laugh really loudly there! ahhaa!

Oh, and I played captain's ball!! I saw ben at the railling there. I think he called my name. And I'm kinda confused and looked at him blankly and said," I'm coming to play captain's ball!"
Anw, I didn't expect myself to play so much. and I just ran and ran and continued to play even its like raining here and there. Enjoyed it loadds. And obviously, enjoyed watching someone playing too. Hahaha! I remembered the way he laughed to yin fei. Super sarcastic yet funny thou. :D He's jus so cute. hehehhehe. And he replayed a face that I did when the ball near hit me. It was jus too scary. So kit soon was throwing the ball with all his might! Oh, and I went to snatch the on-coming ball from him and I accidentally hit his palm I think. (but I don't care. I don't think its painful. so i never say sorry). So I felt tat the captain's ball was scary to me..and I'm scary to kenneth because I almst made his spects fall and he almost tripped. I grabbed his arm and asked whether he's seriously okay a not. I hope he'll forgive me.

Last but not least...the guy(ben), he tapped me with his fingers I guess.. I seriously thought he went off with others to have dinner together. But there he was, next to me. When he tapped me, I was looking down and thought.."do I have a friend that I know that carries something like a hockey stick?" den I looked up...and to my HUGE suprise..its HIMM!! WOO HOOO! JACKPOT!
We talked as we walked over the head bridge. I wasn't feeling that good at that moment because nicholas is chasing after some verdict on food. So I was kinda troubled. But because he was there, I felt slightly better. After he left, I suddenly dunno where my brain went to. I dunno what to type to nicholas anymore. And when I was buying food, I took out my ez link card instead of wallet. I think I'm lost in some wonderland. HAHA! SMILING so much when walking back home. :) Saturday was a great day!

So is today's morning. Ben was sitting a row behind me at the side. And he saw me and I saw him when we're both at a distance. hehhee. I think I looked quite blur that time. Anw, after that..I only get to see him agn after the meeting with the run for your life committee. He was chatting so busily. Well, den I went off to piano. It was pretty good. :) and later in the evening, I went to celebrate with granny too. I felt good too :D

Here's the thing...its tmr's UT!! I just don't feel like studying. My lappy cannot work and my sis is going to make a complain to harvey norman tmr with regards to the warranty. And also my bro might get involved in a police case. Sighs. His friends sold him things that are underpriced (without the boss permission too), so now the goods are with my bro. As my bro thought that the price was given at his friend's boss permission, thats why my bro bought it. Who knows his friend did something with the receipt and now the boss found out and made a police case. Sighs. His poor friends and my brother...I wonder how they are doing now. I seriously hope that they will be fine.

Sighs. I hope saturday comes quickly again. :)

Bye readers :]

Harvesting a courageous thought

Hey readers! :D


The concert was awesome!! the audience made me felt super "shiok"! And most importantly, HE CAME!! He even took pics with me!! one to one!! I felt that the pic does not look really great..cos he does have a fat fat face in the pic. So I cropped out the one that we took together with the other guys, where he was sitting beside me (: cos he look better in that pic. And guess wad, it fits so nicely in the phone as wallpaper and I simply love the phone more because of that wallpaper! my class mate commented that she saw me simply to myself after presentation because I was look at the phone. And she knew it that I was smiling becos of HIM!! haha!!

and I was abit crazy and said, " ben was smiling to me."



Oh well, anw JUST NOW...
I suddenly had a courgeous thought! A thought for confession!
I think to myself...what will happen if I leave the wallpaper there till tmr where all my church friends will see? I imagined myself saying,"Yes, actually I like him since sec 4 and none of you notice it. And I just don't wanna hide anymore." and I imagined myself added, "Cos, I don't feel what's the point of hiding it. And to fall in love with some one like him, I don't think its wrong. And I don't mind letting him know how I feel about him too."

I mean..I can imagined myself saying that.. like seriously.
But I don't know whether I would be brave enough to say it.
And I feel rather foolish and stupid instead if I would have told them.
Because things will spread. And what happens if he don't feel comfortable talking to me anymore? and even avoid me? Will I be brave enough to accept such consequences? Well, I just don't think I'm prepared for this. So yea, I guess I have to be discreet. And probably, I'm just getting wild thoughts and excitement. I should just stop being like this Shi Ting. Cos its meaningless and in the end, nothing may happen.

Oh well...

Bye readers! [:

BREATHE IN~ BREATHE OUT!

HEEEEEE'S GOING FOR MY CONCERT!

OH GOSH! I can't help but to feel super excited about everything EVERYTHING! about meeting him to pass ticket to him and I had a short and heart pacing convo with him just now. Becos I was waiting him to say yes! AND HE SAID YEA SURE! after asking my freaking many questions. I bet he hasn't read any of the facebook msg that I sent to him.. BUT nvrmind! HE'S GOING GOING GOING! :DDDD

I've got his contact no. OH YEA! :D I mean I know where to get his contact number, but I want to ask him personally so that he won't have any idea that I stalked him in facebook.

MY FACE IS BURNING HOTT! hahaha! Yin san made me laugh loadds
She was saying that she shitted when I was in gospel during ushering.
LOL!!! I TOLD HER I CAN'T IMAGINE AND SHE SAID," who ask u to go imagine?! don't imagine! you're supposed to be thinking of smiling and gospel and not think of me shitting LOL!"

PP has to rework. But how to cut down history to 100 words?
Its so impossible. :( NVRMIND. I need to apply my pro summary skills:D

SEEYA ALL READERS!
oh! for those of my who knows about that secret guy...and are going to the concert...
pls, don't make things obvious. okay. don't come and ask me issit him and point to him.
Because he's very observant wan. Once u point point den i "malu malu"
OKAY? help me to keep it a secret :D

THANKS READERS!

bye readers! :D

what a day

Perfect submission, all is at rest,
I in my Saviour am happy and blest;
Watching and waiting, looking above,
Filled with His goodness, lost in His love.

This is my story, this is my song,
Praising my Saviour all the day long.

Hey readers!
I thanked God that I felt all is at rest! Even though PP had stressed me so much on the previous sat and sun, where I managed to complete the rest of 5 sections, writing an additional of 3000+ words, I felt God's with me, supporting me and let me have the strength and will to finish my work. I'm really filled with His goodness. He is the Only One worthy to be praised!

Here's the thing about today k..
I did something exceptionally stupid in class.
For such a long period of time, I've been shaking my legs, with my legs crossed and thought that my legs were in touch with the bunch of wires underneath my team's table. So i happily shook my legs and my legs "leaned" on the "wires". Den my friend asked me, " Shi Ting! Why are you shaking my legs?" I was "huh?!" and "what?!", "how did you....(know)", and I looked down, still shaking my legs at that position. Man man man...I've been shaking my friend's leg!!! (She's sitting opp me!!) And she told me that I've been shaking her legs for a while!!! And she said she didn't mind, thinking it was okay for a while, but when I still continued to shake my legs (and her legs) for quite sometimes, she just couldn't bear it any longer and asked me why. I was like in a totally shock mode when I just discovered that "paiseh" fact, and at the same time, my other teammate was laughing his head off. He was saying again and again, "HOW COULD YOU THOUGHT THAT THE LEG WAS A WIRE?!?! HOW? HAHAHAHA!" Then we all just laughed out loudd!! He looked down at my legs again as I was showing him how I did it. Den we all laughed again! This was really seriously funny and stupid.

I certainly made their day man! :DD

Kim shared the funny old man that doesn't know how to insert the straw into the plastic cup with the plastic wrapped on the mouth of the cup. (those bubble tea cup kind) I can't believe that the man actually can squeeze the cup (adding pressure to the cup) and best thing is, he inserted the straw on the blunt side, not the sharp side...and of cos, best thing ever done leads to best outcome, and the drink spilled kim and her ah ma!!! hahahaha!!! Kim added that the old man still continue to drink it! hahahha! ULTIMATE OLD MAN! (UOM UOM!)

BYE READERS

don't know why-Love

Hey readers

I dunno why I just feel like blogging...
Probably I felt quite lonely as I felt that my sweet church-ties aren't really talking to me much and there's nothing much I can talk to them about. I don't feel anywhere comfortable telling them that I like this guy which they all know. And from my past experience, the people whom I dun wanna let them know all know about my crush. So I just wanna stop sharing these private stuff from them and hope they will not know about this blog even though I sometimes mentioned about them. Which was quite a sad thing isn't it..the feeling that I can't share my secret/feelings with them..which I suppose will be my lifelong buddies. We've been friends for ages alrdy..ever since the day when we fall, the first thing that we did is to cry for mummy.

I felt kind of empty...Perhaps because I did not have a vibrant life with my God...and perhaps I'm eager to have a better relationship with this guy. Cos u noe...when u didn't talk to a person u missed so much and didn't have any eye contact with the person, you just don't feel satisfied and not content enough. Although yesterday when he was leaning on his hands and facing my side directly, I didn't dare to look at his direction. All I was doing is looking at the person who's talking and stare on the floor. So I guess, its just my fault. Argh, don't like this feeling...I somehow really hope that he'll be in the same bus as me when I'm on my way to church like in the past. (thats how I found out that he used the same phone model and colour as me. Its some donkey years back. and when I changed phone, I found out that he's using another same model phone with me and same colour again! Woohoo!) Anw, now I don't see him anywhere in the same bus as me. ):
I'm crying in my heart now..

Hope all these feelings will past as I start to desire to have a more vibrant relationship with God my Father! :D

Bye readers

TWO words to describe me now: SHAG. STRUGGLING

Hey readers

For some reasons that I haven't been blogging its because I'm too tired to do so and I have lotsa things to get done. School's PP, transition ideas for replug concert, the mega lot of quizzes that were made compulsory to do after lessons, practice my difficult to the max piano pieces (stress ya noe. cos the tempo a bit too fast and I've a slow progress. my teacher is very demanding and I had to do slow practice with mentrome! arghs), upcoming YP and BMET's preparations, timo wanted more from my testimony so I've to edit it today, the SS homework. Arghs. so many things to be done in such a short time. But still I can managed to go for meetings that I want! Like for prayer meeting! Its amazing! I thought I couldn't go on tues anymore cos I'm having band practices after school and my school ends about 4+pm and I have to get rj and quiz done before I can go anywhere. So thats amazing that I can finish all these and including dinner and GO FOR PRAYER MEETING! woohoo! :D:D:D

I enjoyed prayer meeting as I can spent that one full hour concentrating and focusing on the Lord. I can stop thinking about my school work and stress that I'm feeling. But it doesn't stop me from thinking about that guy somehow. Its stupid. The thought of him comes on and off. Really stupid. I just feel like taking my brain out, pull out/empty that portion that I've been thinking about him. Somehow my password oso got his name, and after my presentation, I would see him smiling at me. how issit possible? Cos I went to facebook via my phone and went to his page, and go to my fav pic of him and just freeze my phone. So yeah, that's how he was smiling at me after my team's presentation.. Seems like I'm getting more crazy about this guy.

Readers, I dunnoe why I'm like this. When he actually stood beside me to ask ,my friend who was discussing about SS, I felt so out of place. I can't even shoot a quick glance at him. I'm just so nervy and I quickly got my drink topped up and look for Uncle tuck keong who asked me to see him for the BMET's visa application thinggy. Well, I just cannot make it ya noe. Not to say about him talking to me, asking why me and yinsan still in church. I guessed he asked us cos he thought we went off since we're not playing captain's ball or wad. So I think he's surprised to see us around. My heart just wanted to tell him cause I want to stay awhile more to see ya around more and perhaps have dinner with u and others. But guess wad, I told him I've stayed cos I was doing my SS homework. Which was only half true. Cos I did played bridge with some of the churchties and 55. haha :D But he didn't need to know that..isn't it? Oh, then he shoot me with the astonished, "OH! WAAH" look...which was quite funny. HAHA!

Okay, I did got very happy to be able to have this short convo with him. I mean seriouslyy...I don't talk to guys in church cos guys don't usually talk to me. And he talked to meeee!! what a rare chancceee! :D Woohoo, and maggie told me about him making sushi. OH GOODNESS, HE ADDED STUPID WATER ON THE SEAWEED. well, cos he took heed of maggie's sis advice, perhaps he tot she's experienced and more reliable? AND HE GOT "SCOLDED" by some of the church aunties. POOR HIM. Well, I think he need to attend home econs classes which he said that he didn't had it, like seriously..

Oh, i think I've gone too much...everything about him him and him. Cos he's in my mind right now, at least for 20 mins already. Just feel quite sad that he left during the workshop on TV and video games..I can't guess why he need to go. I felt abit weird..like he might be meeting some girl friends or something. Well, well, well, I shouldn't feel jealous or bitter right now. Stupid me again. Maybe cause I just love you. (YEA! I LOVEEEE YOU <3 )

Bye readers. (Pray that I would not be stupid and think about him esp when worshipping the LORD tmr morning! )

My sweet 18th birthday

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Guess what? I had surprises after surprises!!!! It was so amazing especially to have friends around to celebrate birthday together! :D Yes, I had an amazing evening together with my close buddies. The thing is that I didn't know that others will come. Thought it'd be romantic to be with kimmy that day :) We did had a heavy heavy dinner..till I felt that my stomach is stretched from side to side..BURSTING if I eat anymore. And its quite hefty thou. Each one of us have to pay more den $20 bucks. We should have gone to eat at sukiya. Buffet somemore. And plus it's dam dam dam shiok! and its less den $20 per person! :DDD Sukiyaaaa...sukiyaaaa i miss you!!! The best thing about it was that I had PRETTY FLOWERS (WITH ROMANTIC COLOUR, BLUE ROSE!), MINI SHOPAHOLIC BOOK AS MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT (I'm at page 65 now), HUGE BIRTHDAY CARD (which I had to guess who is who's note for me. and I had to sing love story by taylor swift as a forfeit becos I guessed wrongly. So, thats how noob I was. Not only that, I had RELIGHTING CANDLES. Thats worse mann.. I used that to play pranks on my friends and now they did it to me. I had blew it still I'm really breathless and the whole pizza hut was filled with SMOKE. Oh, and got one candle holder was soo cute! got birthday song in it! NICEEE! never seen that before! so special! Apart from all these, I had looadds of laughter! Kumar was the main joker. and I can't helped but to laugh at almost everything he did. He's such a joker. He can fight with christopher. Both are humorous.

The next day was a planned outing with my close churchties! We had koreaannn foodd!! And its so cheaap! :D The side dishes were superb and the soup was awesome awesome! Naomi just came back from australia and she baked cake for me! She said she learnt frosting while shes having lecture! Thinking about making a birthday cake for me while shes in australia having lecture.. Whoa, I'm super honored! I still havent finish the cake. Cos she baked an enormous cake which I bet anyone can finish it in such a short time although it really taste awesome :D Den we spent our day at bugis, and we played 55 AND BRIDGE!!! its super fun lahh! I didn't noe that its so easy to play! And our day ends at prayer meeting...which i hope that someone is there, but I didn't get to see him. So nvrmind. my heart uh my heart...why did I miss him so much mann. And I just dunnoe how I can just pretend to be okay for so long. I wish I didn't. Anw, I shall just stop here because tmr theres this workshop...den theres replug too. I just hope that tmr will pass so quickly.

NIGHTS READERS!